PeKCeK的天空

避忌

2011-12-06T13:21:00.000-08:00

在一起，不是应该互相坦白吗？

你又病了。
像以往一样，不喜欢吃药，不愿意看医生。
我说过我不逼你，是为了不想在制造吵架机会。
但最近，再次让我知道了一些，不知为好的事。

I'm now insomnia because of this. I'm scared. I don't know what to do.

我知道那是你的本性，但我开始有点接受不到了，我的心好像泡在柠檬水3天3夜。

我不要跟你吵架，因为我还很爱你，但我开始不知到如何面对你。看到你就会想起。。。
我根本不想去想，可是u月不想的事情，脑子里就会越想涌出来。我恨我自己。

心酸。。。。。

熬夜

2011-11-09T12:53:00.000-08:00

我爱你
我为你熬夜

不好的是，我利用了一种我不同意的方式来保持精神

但我看到你烦恼，哭泣，我更心痛，
我宁愿辛苦的是我，也不想看到你这样。

最近，我开始骂你了，我不想看到你折磨自己，
所以我骂你，我宁愿你哭，也不要你伤害自己，
我宁愿受伤的，是我，也不要你受伤。

好好休息吧，别再想太多了，不要再自责，
有我陪你，我爱你。

<3

SHIIIIT

2011-11-01T02:43:00.000-07:00

我又不小心看到我不想看到的东西了。

我知道你可能只是在玩玩，但是我看了，心很痛，很酸，

好像被一整瓶醋慢慢慢慢地淋在心上。

果然，有些事情，不知道好过知道。

现在我很怕你上FB。

失败

2011-10-31T17:55:00.000-07:00

昨晚，在小鸟那边，看到peh xian，肥佬和消防员在不停灌输正能量。
参与了一阵子，但心里还是很不平衡。
我发现到我逐渐退步，越来越差。
当所有人都把期望摆在我身上时，而最后的结果是反效果的时候，我的信心再次跌入谷底。
我退步，逐渐退步，越来越差。
时间管理不好，情绪管理不好，办事能力退步。
我真的，
逐渐变差。
当导演，导烂戏。
当演员，演不好。
当制作人，制作瑕疵满满的戏。
当男朋友，不够醒目。

以前，你比我醒目，我其实不介意，觉得这就是你的性格，你比我醒目。
现在，我发现不是你醒目，是我蠢，笨，没用，粗心。

我觉得我没用之处-
想帮你时，你说不用。
你叫我帮你时，我做不好。
做不出决定时，很怕
自己做决定时，糟糕。
驾车差过你，
打机差过你，
什么都差过你。

加上最近看到了不应该看到的东西。
我很怕，很怕失去你。
我跟你说过，认识到你我很幸福、很快乐。
但是我突然感觉到，我给不到你安全感，我很怕。

我最近很失败，为什么我就是达不到我想要达到的结果？

在乎

2011-10-23T17:38:00.000-07:00

前两天，发生了不开心的事，不开心的事，开心的事，不开心的事

我的苹果书被送进厂了。
买才将近一个月，就被送进厂了，为什么我那么不幸运？
过后下去早我的dear，吵了个架，我们又吵架了。。。 =(
回吧生开bekas演出的会议，开心的是看到大家为了戏剧，为了演出再次聚在一起，开会讨论。
替过了生日2天的俊康庆生。

原来，我是那么的在乎，在乎你们为我庆生。那么多年来的生日，说真，每年我都有期待，但是不大，因为我知道，期待越大，失望越大，所以每年我都是以平常心看待。
今年，我都在KL，过生日，The Six为我庆生，dear带我买鞋，E3在爱面子为我庆生还有去喝酒。但是最期待的，还是你们，bekas，认识了你们那么多年，我最期待的惊喜，就是从你们那边来的，但是每年，就是缺少了你们。
也许我与你们的生日没缘份吧？
可是今年有一句让我心痛的，竟然是因为我没下吧生。
原来要为我庆生，是要我亲自下来的。
那些年，我为那么多朋友庆生，为他们去过的那么多地方，原来轮到我自己的生日，还是要我配合的。

没有生气，没有不爽，自是一丝的失望，失望我回忆里缺少的这段回忆，这份感动，如今感动没了，还要心酸。

我很健忘，很快我又会忘了这件事，不放在心上，可是现在的我，很emo。

Apple is Frozen

2011-10-21T18:39:00.000-07:00

我的苹果，买一个月，昨晚，start不到机。

iamverypissedoffrightnowbecaue4thousanddollarshitcannotstartup.

想念你 =）迫不期待想看到你。

sien。

等一下去拿苹果给人检验。请你不要有事。我需要用到你。

=（

讨厌

2011-10-21T02:29:00.000-07:00

讨厌！讨厌！讨厌！

我发现，我患上了周五恐惧症＝＝

不喜欢分开的感觉，还要相差40km。。。

我懂，有些人的远距离恋爱更远，但是，每天习惯了与你一起度过，要分开，真的很痛。。。

下个礼拜还要放那么多天假！！

I AM ADDICTED TO YOU

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第二次

2011-10-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

第二次，第二次我们闹得你又想要下车。
今天其实对我来说是开心的一天，早上呈现我们的影片，受好评，
然后中午呈现另一个presentation，呈现得很开心（因为是非正式型的）。

刚才的架，又令我情绪不受控制，泪不停涌出。
我清楚了解你的脾气性格，我喜欢上的也是你的性格，
没有你，我会不行，你已经在我生活哩成为了一个习惯。
就像你跟我说的一样，我们真的不能没有对方＝）
我在你家楼下等，等你的出现。
我很害怕，害怕你会跟我提那个，
我不能，我会死。
结果最后原来我们都不舍得对方。
我很开心，但那时的我，泪，真的不停的涌着。
我是不是很没用？常在你面前流泪？。。。
我不喜欢在你面前流泪，显得我很没用。。。
但我就是那么的感性，情绪说来就来，根本控制不到。
幸好，有你，你的拥抱，令我的心都暖了。

这次，令我们更加珍惜彼此＝）

爱你，dear，<3

E神

2011-06-25T01:31:00.001-07:00

wow, Never been here for AGES!

Had a lot of stuff happening recently, to cut things short, I’ll just list them all out in point form… LOL!

i感天动地结束！

iiTEA TIME 18 结束！大家被SHOOT！哈哈 ~

iii钢骨森里庆功了，第一次看自己的表演，通过DVD~

iv赶功课赶到飞车，紧张！ = =

v变成串场王= =。。。。

vi第一次踏入CLUB~认识了一对靓女！哈哈哈 = =

vii红姐姐排戏如火如荼

viii83天团重演，要开始拍戏了！

ix还是单身

哎，踏入人生的第十九年，还是单身。我可以在今年过去之前恋爱吗？

虽然我知道，我时间忙到。。。可是，还是很渴望，很想体验。。。

哎。。。

对了！

8月6日，陈奕迅，E神来马演唱！！！

OMG！！！！

我要去！！！！！

谁要跟我一起去？来来！ =）

End of Draught

2011-05-15T06:55:00.001-07:00

A week passed by since the semester started, a lot of things gone through since my last post, which was like, N years ago LOL.

First of all, finished one of my breakthrough performance in <Nomad>. The last day really was an emotional day for me.

Knowing that none of my best friends are coming for the show really beat me down emotionally. Kept quiet the whole morning, through make up session, and meal times….

The tears just kept trying to burst out of my damn eye balls. The same feeling had been going on for the past weeks… Loneliness, tiredness, disappointments, arguements,fed-ups …

I’m gonna lose my mind!!!!

The shit that happened , it’s driving me NUTS!!!!

I just wanna find a spot to burst everything out,

a place for me to lose it, not letting others see me,

but where?

I don’t think there is such place…

And the shit will continue to haunt me…

Despair.

分叉路口

2011-04-17T21:02:00.001-07:00

续《83》，很快的，我又要投入另一个角色了。

这，应该是我表演的分叉路口吧？

从来，从来，从来，没有演过如此的角色，

在他人眼中，这个角色很常见，也没什么特别，

但对我来说，这个角色，很累。

很辛苦。

很难受。

每一次的彩排，演完这个角色后我都很想死。

那个情绪，很难受，很辛苦。

就像是要呕却呕不出的感觉，

要爆却爆不掉的感觉，

要死却似不掉的感觉。

开始，渐渐的，对这个角色产生恐惧感。

很怕投入这个角色，

很怕进入这个角色的状态。

眼神很累，

精神的累，

全身都很累。

啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我要发疯了！！！！！！！！！！！！

所以，大家敬请期待《钢骨森林的游牧之歌》吧！

里面除了我这个那么想死的角色以外，还包含了许许多多的特别角色！

大家不容许错过哦！真的！

来看看我这个超级无敌EMO角色到底会发生什么事令到我那么pekcek！

哈哈~！ =]

《回忆》之《83天团》

2011-03-15T05:40:00.001-07:00

没错，我最近的舞台剧演出也圆满落幕。

终于能够认认真真地 blog 了。

83天团，开始时对我来说，的确没有很大的感觉。

我就带着当一名普通演员的心情去了排练。

2个月的排练。

我遇上我人生最大的挑战。

我遇上我曾经喜欢过的女生。

我们角色的关系，是情侣。

我的心情很复杂。

我的思绪很错乱。

我很难平复我的心情。

我不敢面对他，可是我却不停警惕自己是专业的演员，不带私人情绪排练。

2个月过去，突破性的演出。

我最大的感触，是得到大家的肯定。

虽然我清楚知道自己并没有交到120分的成绩出来，过程中自己也很不在状态内，但最后的最后，我撇开了一切，阔出去，把所有都放了出来。

我叫了很多人来看。

很多，很多，来到的，比我想象中还要多！

很谢谢你们来看，跑下台看到你们的那一幕，真的真的忍不住冲了过去抱了你们起来，嘴里不停喊

谢谢！

落幕了，我没有哭，就像《番薯》一样，心情澎湃，热血来临，只有不停地蹦跳，奔跑，寻亲。

谢谢你们，

爸爸妈妈弟弟，

Tea剧场的亲戚们，

TEA2的兄弟姐妹们，

E3的同仁们，

L4的sojiao们，

光华的小瓜们，

感谢爆我料，然后cue我灯光音响的LL与勇宽，

当然还有你，你，还有你！！

谢谢你们！

谢谢你们抽出了你们宝贵的晚上来观赏这个演出！

我演的很爽！

我享受舞台上的那一刻，

享受听到自己声音的那一刻，

享受演员与演员飚戏的那一刻，

享受灯光打在我脸上的那一刻，

享受在舞台上高歌的那一刻，

享受在后台很紧张地换装的那一刻，

享受每一次我说出一个笑点时观众爆笑的那一刻，

享受与你打架的那一刻，

当然，享受最后最后最后谢幕的那一刻。

这个演出，是我人生另一个里程碑，我第一次，第一次担任主角，拥有那么多台词，需要唱那么多首歌，还有第一次给人称赞‘靓仔’！ (@^^@)

虽然有人还是说我谐星改不掉，但是我很开心，开心没有让观众睡着，开心没有让这部剧得到坏评！

《回忆》之《83天团》落幕了。

的确，是一场很美好，很美好的《回忆》。

MISS

2011-03-10T10:20:00.000-08:00

I miss E3..... suddenly......
Although my Black wife suddenly menjadi begini,
tapi I know they didn't meant it, accidents do happen.....
But seriously, I miss them.....
This week I felt so apart from them due to the heavy rehearsal times going on.....
I don't even have enough time to sleep for god's sake!....

Suddenly feel so emo.....
Miss the times we lepak together man......
I await the time that I have the time to lepak with you guys again!!!
Play with Peh Xian, Nikkie, June, May, Ah Hea, Soon Kang, and etc etc etc, If i din mention ur name dun worry, just I now rehearsal, no time to type adi, hahahaha!!!
MUACKS!!!!!! =]

Blog with iPhone

2011-03-09T07:10:00.000-08:00

I cannot keep using TIRED as an excuse ...
看着L4 和 E3 的同学都有来看我。
无形的压力莫名地出现。
可是却很开心。
今天的pnp，谢谢Leong，hauhui，Vince的Support!
Love you guys!!!=]
结果帮了vince玩轮椅游戏。
然后买了一个L4钥匙圈，属于L4的钥匙圈！
Happy !!!

1 day journey

2011-03-06T09:53:00.001-08:00

Today really was tiring…… had a whole day schedule up head,

woke up 9am in the morning to have breakfast with VeeHun~~~

This is the first time I had a full meal of wan tan mee in KL and it only costs me RM4.30 !

I really really felt full this breakfast, unlike other KL typical wan tan mee stalls, costs a fortune and the quantity is surprisingly small.

After that, rushed off to Simon’s house for rehearsal.

On the way at Jalan Kuching, noticed the road opposite were filled with military tanks!

Didn’t get to take a good pic of it…. =(

Condo Simon~Danau Idaman~

First time I reached early! And I couldn’t find the toilet! =P

We had 3 sets of muscle training, tiring! But I do began to feel more and more consistent on doing them! I guess I am improving!

After taht, we had lunch break but before that, had a scolding from daddy……

After lunch break, ( I just had a cup of ice water due to my fullness from this morning’s wan tan mee LOL) we head back to the area and we had a performing session!!! LOVED it!

Had a lot of chemistry with Ah Boon today haha!

<<< Vince ‘checking’ Jacklyn’s body in their act LOL

After that, we separated to our own activites, soem had more rehearsal, while I went back to Klang for my REST.

Later on coming midnight, we went to Ah Boon’s house for a surprise birthday to him!

I guess I’ll just let the pictures do the talking….

Too tired now…….. G00d night world and to all whom I care! =)

2011-03-05T17:41:00.000-08:00

Blogging on iPhone feels weird ...
I do love using it, but the battery really goes down fast.
At this point the battery already gone by 3% T.T

Another thing really is the auto correct function,
Quite troublesome actually ,but I guess I need time to adapt to it.

Another peh day of Rehearsal ...
I'm starting to lose my patience on some people...
But I can't express to them...
This sucks ...
And now I get another music editing Assignment ..zz.

挑战

2011-03-03T16:41:00.001-08:00

用心去演好每个角色。

我其实很害怕，很害怕这个演出里大家看到的又是搞笑的wetwet在舞台上。

我其实很压力，压力自己要和‘她’对戏。

我其实很挣扎，挣扎自己在演员功课上的过程。

我其实有敷衍，敷衍的对待这个演出。

虽然之前有演过那么大型的演出，

但是这次，台词多了那么多，

戏份多了那么多，

而且他人对自己的期望又高，

压力真的会有。

我了解，

我到目前也只不过是及格的表演。

离演出不到两个礼拜，

我竟然还只及格的表演！

我很害怕。

我大胆在面子书po上了那些公开邀请函，

邀请了所有我的亲戚朋友，

我其实有另一个目的的，

就是想让大家看看，

林勇豪正在演戏！

林勇豪是认真的！

所以我真的很想这个演出能够完整，成功！

我不想一些亲戚朋友看了这次过后，

对舞台剧失去信心，

还有对我，

失去信心。。。。。

《83天团》的各位，

虽然我没有常常与你们聚在一起，

或在 booth 一起，

可是我真的很希望大家能够一起把这个演出搞好！

我绝对会做好我演员的部分！

我会把戏演好，

把票卖好，

与其他演员配合好，

还有。。。。。。。。

把我的脸顾好！！！

瓦嘎嘎嘎！！！！

《83天团》！

加油！

Ironic

2011-03-02T18:22:00.001-08:00

The past week had been …. Ironic….

Why had the past week been so ironic?…..

Damn….so ~~emo~~ right now….

I admire myself…. I admire myself for being able to withstand such pressure and still keep going on.

Although I do aware that I am not at my best.

I’m getting tired…

I’m getting frustrated of the influences in classes, trainings, rehearsals and etc.

Irony and annoyance is killing me.

I’m trying the best I can to ignore these annoyance, but, it’s so so so tiring………

Last night was my worst night.

WORST.

The confusion and stress and concern of hurting people’s feelings all came together at once.

It really was tiring and frustrating and in the end I ended up watching another ironic movie.

No strings attached.

The story was so like my TRUE story.

Why lately there are so many ‘Based on True Stories’ ????????

WHY??

THIS SUCKS.

I need to relax now. I await Friday.

I really love this shot.

Its like releasing myself in the big big restraints of a limitation.

If only I could be just like this, releasing my full potential in a atmosphere that seem impossible to do so.

I await that day of my success, the day where I strive towards my dream, the day I appear on the big screen or the day when acting is my full time job.

But for now, it is my preparation point.

I ‘m lacking of experience, lacking of practical and lacking of certain aspects.

I still have a long way to go.

美人眼

2011-02-25T19:15:00.001-08:00

My L4 pal says I have a 美人眼…

Are you sure? HuiXin …

Mushroom?Broccoli?

2011-02-25T19:11:00.001-08:00

Went for braces check-up this morning, woke up with a sore and uncomfortable throat.

Arrived early and the clinic wasn’t opened yet so waited for a few moments.

Waited for 30 minutes for my turn and the process went on for 5 minutes.

On the way back, noticed the enormous cloud in the sky and started shaking my head of the pollution going on.

Then, I felt remorse.

Mom told me the clouds were just like the ones when dad’s factory burned down.

So this was how it looked like when it happened 2 years ago.

I wasn’t there when it happened……

Everything changed after that……

Suddenly felt depressed, received a message from 老豆 this morning informing about the cancelation of today’s rehearsal.

I’m feeling 矛盾.

I don’t know if this is a chance to relax, to holiday, or a loss of time to rehearse…..

For the past 2 weeks I had been squeezing time for myself to relax, to rest from the current hectic life I’m undergoing and now I suddenly got a few hours to do so and I’m feeling …… awkward……

Read a friend’s blog moments ago, felt his depression too.

2010 really was a tough year, a lonely year.

I had a loony roommate to sometimes talk to for my problems but he, he lost his 2 best buds in the field of love.

He is in a crowd of friends that just show their surface.

He is ALONE.

How I wish we were still classmates, or even course mates, I miss the days we fooled together in class although you were the one getting fooled around most of the time.

Before you had a mission, a mission to lead a group of drama lovers.

Now, you are running towards your true dream.

GO FOR IT.

You know you have our support all the time, 24/7, rain or shine, day or night.

Even though we are not by your side 24/7, I believe we are connected in here.

I hope you see this. I want you to know it is not your fault that you weren’t there for us.

You are not god, ok?

Just be yourself and enjoy your life!

We will not disappear from your life and we hope you will not disappear from ours too!

View taken from my condo’s balcony, comforts me a lot.

Photography Exercise 1

2011-02-25T08:21:00.001-08:00

Today early in the morning…..( does 11 am count as early? haha) 3 of us L4(excluding Leong) rushed our Photography exercise in HauHui’s condo.

We thought our tutorial starts on 2pm while it really started at 12pm so we missed it…. even though by 2.30pm when we were late for it we decided to skip it but in the end we missed it already. LAWL.

We went to CITC to finish the paperwork. Special thanks to Hau Hui, really hardworking! haha!

And efficient too, in doing things and also EATING! =]

See their hardworking sides! =D

Never forgets to express her ‘sojiao-ness’ haha!

Noob Printing from Wangsa Maju zzzz forgot the shop name…… All the words get cooped up and mixed together zzz.

After our small ‘trip’ hustled off to Petaling street for rehearsal.

This is my 3rd performance rehearsal in a month….. I mean the 3rd show !

3 shows on-going…… I can handle it….. I guess…..

NO!

I must convince myself once again!

I can do it! =]

Gonna get my IPhone 4 next week! If I get the time to get it! =D

解放

2011-02-24T19:35:00.001-08:00

Back to College life

2011-02-18T10:05:00.001-08:00

Since college commenced I once again step back to my humble PV12 that doesn’t allow me to spam at midnight.

Losing the internet is one problem, the worst one is I even lost my laptop! …….

I’m guessing the display went BYEBYE.

Well, 1st of all, I celebrated my 1st Valentine’s day in 19 years of my life LOL!

Terima Kasih to Berry, where we wasted our day at Times Square Singing, Watching movie, eating and window shopping…. Well, some shopping but most of it is window shopping! Well.. for me … at least…. Loved it when we passed by the shop that sells couple wear and we felt disgusted at the same time where we made the ‘yeer’ sound together x)

Then, it was rehearsal, rehearsal, and more REHEARSAL for

《83天团》 & 《钢》 .

At this point I really started to miss the holidays I spent at home, living like a parasite, sleeping at 4 in the morning and waking up at 12 in the noon and just lazed around waiting for meals to come and either watch the TV or sticking to the computer.

BUT, life has to go on, and it is time to be getting back to work!

3rd sem of college do seem short, and relaxing, well, at least for the time being where we haven’t start our assignments!

Anyways, Loh Me Ping again, haha. EXPECTED.

Really felt funny when we went to her class again. The best thing of meeting up the same tutor is of course meeting up with classmates!! =D Reunited with the L4 again and we are as sojiao as ever! =D Brought Toshiba and HP to Cheras to makan Hakka Mee and we left satisfied!! It sure has been a long time since I dined there, The taste never Change!!!

Not gonna buy DSLR by the way…… Not really into shooting actually…. just find it fun sometimes….. get bored by it easily…….

I’d rather spend the money on i-phone LOL. Planning to get it soon! Not gonna wait for i-phone 5 though…. Just gonna stick to 4.And it’s all thanks to short sem, PTPTN and also some extra income I get doing part time shooting muahahahaha =]

And I would’ve got it if I was free Saturday to go up Genting to sell books! …… Grrrrrrrr…….. so frustrated knowing the good pay I’m missing out………..

Anyways, my time at present really is extremely booked…. till May, I guess I’m not gonna have a lazy day again like the CNY holidays till then……..

Oh, And I found out my commercial will be aired around April in the cinemas! Hope I get to see myself on the Big Screen this time with my face visible!!! Anticipating it!! =D

BYE BYE EMO

2011-02-11T08:54:00.001-08:00

很快的，我就向EMO说拜拜了。

全靠它！！！们！！！

超级无敌喜欢杜文泽的表演！果然是喜剧演员！《最强》演员班底来能够我一直笑的就只有他

= =

开头时很奇怪，很冷，很闷。可是还好过后慢慢进入了气氛，开始好笑起来。

可是还是杜文泽最好笑 xD

甄子丹。。。。很奇怪 = = 第一次不是看他叶文，真的很奇怪 = =

喜欢张柏芝的表演！说哭就哭，要哭不哭酱，可是又不会做作，不像那些假假哭不出然后扮有型的。

刘嘉玲只能说好像没什么发挥，没什么印象。

郑中基客串那段也很好笑！！！！

《我知》里两个主角都很喜欢！

虽然故事开始时有点奇怪，结尾也是。不明白为什么是那条鱼= =

可是看到很开心，也是有不停笑！！

EMO song

2011-02-10T21:11:00.001-08:00

很鬼死好听，可是听了很 EMO的一首歌。

H U R T

2011-02-10T08:58:00.001-08:00

Alone today……

I actually enjoy the loneliness sometimes.

It gives me a space , a personal space to think, seriously think, what am I doing at present.

Don’t need to interact,

Don’t need to concern,

Don’t need to care…….. for OTHERS.

I regretted……….

regretted that I asked for company ……..

I should’ve just stayed alone for that few hours……..

Did you know that really hurt me when you said that words?

Usually when I get hurt, I just wipe off the wound and TRY, TRY to present myself as neutral.

But this time, the wound is like a sliced artery, I really really tried my best to hide it.

It hurt even more when the others started to mention my past incident of getting drunk……..

That was also another 1 of my permanent wound that couldn’t be healed .

HOW DID I SURVIVE THAT 4 HOURS?

Fake laughters, Fake exaggerations, Fake singing.

When I know that everybody noticed that there’s something wrong with me and started discussing privately,

The wound deepened.

WHY DIDN’T I JUST WENT FOR ANOTHER MOVIE ALONE??

WHY??

Okay, I’m sorry that I came.

“后悔叫你来，来了霸我的位”

奇异瓜雪之旅

2011-02-03T19:54:00.001-08:00

今年年的主题【狼人、杀手】

哈哈，好像九把刀的书的题目！=P

大家80%都处于玩杀手游戏的状态内。

无论到了餐馆，还是在家都一直不停地在玩，一直把握时间。

一有空档，就拿出牌来玩。

结果，玩上瘾了。

好开心，虽然途中有气争执，可是，我们这几个，真的很久，很久没有那么的开心，亲密过了。

叶伟杰、林仁俊、郑俊伟。

虽然这次的聚会很少人很少人出席。

但是，我相信我们依然得到我们想要的感觉！

很喜欢很喜欢EASON的一首歌。

朋友，生活中不可缺少的。

他给你陪伴。

他给你安慰。

他给你快乐。

他给你回忆。

感谢我所有朋友。

小学。

Sibiri。

IQ Kid。

中学。

KiWi。

S7。

TEA。

E3。

L4。

感谢你们留给我的时光。

这时光，永远留在我回忆。

KiWi GatheRing

2011-01-29T22:07:00.001-08:00

Had a blast with the KiWi gang last night, reached home at 4am! ZZZ

填饱了肚子就到88火锅找那班sot的戏子们（不想吃所以自己先吃饱=P）

去到那里，第一个惊喜是整堆人一起向我喊：男主角！！！男主角！！！

顿时不知如何回应。。。真的，发现到自己已经失去以往像现在他们的热情！

哈哈。

看着周围的人也一起看着我，尴尬到！！！

谢谢你hor！~亲爱的MiLo老师~~~= =

交流了一番后，便启程到第二站〉ah yap家玩杀手。

结果，到了他家，改变主意，到丽平家。

有时，很讨厌他这样突然的改变主意。

加上捷俞很难的可以跟我们一起玩，结果因为改地点，它就不能一起了。。。

Anyway，一整晚，玩了很考表演课的杀手/狼人。

这也是我第一次玩到那么激动！哈哈。

最后，越玩越peh，有些人又要走了。

结果大家就好像休息下来。

过了不久大家又玩起，简单一点的杀手，只是加了一个小妹妹。

待会儿，就要跟那班KiWi帮到瓜雪（俊伟）的家玩两天两夜了！

事隔一年，大家又聚在一起！

在一样的地方！

作大同小异的事！

期待！！！

冷清

2011-01-28T08:21:00.001-08:00

今天的L4很冷清。。。不知是大家睡了？

今天上了TLC第一趟正式的课，感谢Eagle~~ =)

过后在回家的路途上遇见了冠庭的车在旁！

打开了窗口高唱了收音机播着的《暧昧》。

顿时。。。

很有感触。。。

暧昧，真的很痛。。。

超讨厌的。。。

不知不觉一滴眼泪就留了下来。。。

幸好当时在后面很癫的boon+jacklyn 不得空注意！哈哈

当时为何会流下那滴泪？

放不下？还是？

不可能！

我确定我已经放下了！

可是为什么刚才会？！

is this 他们所说的创伤？

NONONO！

不要伤！

。。。。

原来这是我用的方法。。。

不停催眠自己。。。

欺骗自己。。。。

啊！！！

只好继续用这个方法。。。

未来？？

2011-01-27T12:01:00.001-08:00

Hari ini I went to my nephew’s new house to help out.

In the end ended up a lazy guest that sits in the living room watching the TV after dinner.

Rumah dia is at Kota Kemuning, 3-storey Bungalow!

踏进他家时，顿时很羡慕他。

他很有本事，而且他计划她的家庭也计划的很周到。

事业有成，结婚，事业更上一城楼，生子。

在这十年内，他一共换了3次家。每一次换的都是豪华住宅区。

这次应该是最后一次。

我想，我以后有可能像他一样吗？

不可能。。。除非中马票？！

我要做的东西，真的很难可以达到像他今时今日的状况。

看着爸爸妈妈跟他们的baby玩，很老土+奇怪的想到，

自己以后有没有可能生回一个给他们‘玩’呢？？哈哈哈！！

SOT jor，恋爱都没谈过还想生baby？！？！

醒啦喂！=P

最近的表演欲望总算有满足到！

哈！

我很知足的，不会很贪心！

可是我发现到我的知足，只能tahan一下子。。。

哈！

有说不贪心！结果转一圈shoot自己！ =P

最近除了舞台，也接触了镜头！

顿时觉得很感恩，自己有这个机会上镜，而且角色不轻！

有人问我：你的钢牙是不是为了拍摄特地去弄得？

我吓倒。

不可能吧！哪里有人为了拍摄特地跑去弄钢牙！很贵也！！

然后他们又问：如果你钢牙拆掉了，就没有人抢你了咯？

更吓倒！

我目前也没有人抢我！！T~T。。。。

不知道该开心地回应他还是悲哀地回应他。。。

我对于我这张脸很模糊。

到底是好看还是好笑？

拍摄那天我听到一句令我最窝心，最感动的一个称赞：

看到他的脸会令我开心起来。

更不可思议的是另一个人的回应是：

我也是！

这句话赞美，令我极度感动！

我这张脸，竟然可以令到他人开心！

原来我这张脸是好笑的！

可是，在我第一次接触这一斑化妆师时，

当他们要把我化成很lut很lut的look时，

他们竟然说：

没有变了，太靓仔，很难。

当时我不知要如何反应！

很多人在劝我转型。

我知道，我的形象很重要。

但是我却很喜欢现在的我！

What To Do…?

寂寞/孤单

2011-01-27T00:15:00.001-08:00

偶尔心灵上会感觉寂寞.

可是不常出现啦!

偶尔,会想要个伴!

啊!!!

又想起她了!

想到他可爱的笑容和声音!

OMG!：

[我zomok发乔!!

T~T

够了够了！

一切顺其自然！

不要乱来！！

不要胡思乱想！！]

我要去 Kuala selangor！和一班知己谈笑风生！

期待！

谐星

2011-01-27T00:09:00.001-08:00

我喜欢谐星表演。

它能让大家开心起来！

我喜欢笑声，喜欢大家的笑声。

我也喜欢笑！

总结：

我喜欢让大家笑起来！

所以？

我该转型吗？？

首先我为什么要转型？

不懂。

LOL!

所以我不需转型！

我要的是去探索不一样的东西！同时keep着我有的东西！

OK。

就这样。

点解？！

2011-01-25T03:33:00.001-08:00

一个人在家放假。

重看了一套《The Terminal》。

每次看这部戏，都会感动流泪。

感动于男主角说的：

我们都在等。

我在等什么？

What am I waiting for?

每一次的恋情我都在等。

两次了，

等到什么出来？

感觉上被人玩了一番。

突然觉得自己很失败。

19岁了，初恋还在。

我不觉得我眼光高。

我只知道我太靠感觉。

可是没感觉的话，在一起也没意思吧？

我几时才等得到？

等到了，又不可能！

郁闷。。。。

今天不停看着他的照片。。。

觉得自己很变态。。。

我是不是渴望爱情及被拒绝到癫了？？？

What should I do????????????

无奈

2011-01-23T23:35:00.001-08:00

每次都是这样，很难的很难的遇见有feel的异性对象，

而且才见面就很好谈，性格很相近，可是，却已经名花有主。

我这人很容易一见钟情，不懂算不算一见钟情，因为我第一眼见到他时其实并没有好感。但是相处了一小段时间后，竟然有了好感。

非常可惜，无奈，无言，他有了男友。

算了。

随缘。

昨天再次体验了当‘明星’的一天。

应该是谐星吧~哈哈

上了‘lut’仔妆，整个人都变lut了。

脸上的妆有超过12个小时。

哈哈哈哈哈~

可是最后有变回靓仔啦~

果然很累很累很累。

拍了10粒钟，不断重复一样的镜头无数次，只为了那60秒的广告。

可是我很庆幸，当了男主角。

同时也认识了很多新朋友！

虽然累，但是在休息时间有的免费唱K！

爽！

而且那里的食物好吃！！！！！

三文鱼生鱼片新鲜无比！

好久没有迟到那么好吃的生鱼片了！

正！！

大家的空可以去USJ 的 THE 19 Mall 去唱K，叫做Newbox KTV，那里的K房很豪华哦！！食物也很好吃！！ =)

不对劲的礼拜

2010-12-04T02:04:00.001-08:00

WOW。。。好久没有等入这个小天地了。。。

真的好久。。。自从学院生活开始后，不再有多余的时间来这里。

这礼拜很不顺利。。。

心情上不顺利，

人事上不顺利，

事务上不顺利，

功课上不顺利，

总之就是事事都不顺利。。。。

偶尔我会质问自己，这个感觉是自己营造的吗？

还是受周围影响？

可是那样我就是在赖别人了。。。

可是，心里不断存在着不安，低潮的情绪。。。

我要流泪，可是流了，不知道为何事而流。。。

会让自己更空虚。

我需要的是与 L4 一起癫，一起把世界变冷，一起做事情。

全新介绍本世纪最新，最冷天团〉 L4

L4可以代表很多意思， LanSi~冷死

最重要的是，我们刚好有四个人！哈哈

L4 成员~

HuiXin~Toshiba 冰箱

Leong~Panasonic冷气机

Paul~HP laptop cooler

Wet~IceKacang刨冰机

希望我们四个以后有的发挥~~哈哈哈 =]

反锁 Trapped outside

2010-06-04T10:31:00.000-07:00

今晚经历了不可思议的一晚。

原本是快乐的一晚，成了我回忆里难忘的一晚。

如题，忘了拿锁匙出门。

今天是星期五，房友们都回家了。
除了我。

因为明早要到TEA大扫除，为了不想明早从吧生再赶过去，我决定留多一晚在condo。

伟汉也留下陪我，明天才送他回家，顺便拉他做牛。

结果在出发吃晚餐时，因为GOOD GOOD拿了钥匙，所以我没拿。

怎知道我尽然忘了，他今天回家。

结果我们吃到一半时，他就离开了。

我们（我+伟汉）也继续用餐+上网。

直到。。。。很突然的。。。我突然醒起。。。我好像没拿钥匙。。。
然后我就伸手进口袋感觉。。。

果然，是空的。。。我呆掉。。。
看着伟汉，告诉他。。。

立刻，拿起电话求救。
结果。。。
全世界不在、房友、屋主、经理人。。。
车钥匙也没有。

全不在。

保安没有办法帮忙。

管理处关了。

那时是 10.30pm。

我们尝试。。。把钥匙环凹直，尝试模仿电影里的情节，希望可以打开锁。

我们也寻找了邻居，希望可以从他们阳台爬过去我们的阳台（我们的阳台门没关）。

可是太远，太危险，放弃了。真不好意思打扰到邻居。

再次寻找保安的求救，但还是失败。

到楼下的杂货店买了一包头发夹，又尝试模仿电影里的情节，又失败。

回到楼下杂货店，借楼梯，想再尝试爬过阳台。

借到了楼梯，上到去，发现不够长。

还给杂货店。

到mamak档借，没有。
到snooker中心借，没有。

看着时间走，12.30am了。

最后的决定，终于，没办法了。

拨电话给Joanne，希望他明早会出门。

谢天谢地，他明早有过去TEA。

最后的结论：在网吧过夜，等明早钥匙来。

不知有没有一部电影的题材是这样的列？
如果没有的话。。。。
那我要用来做功课了！！呵呵！！

伟汉，辛苦你了！！陪了我一整晚。

Behind The Scene’s behind the scene

2010-04-11T10:03:00.001-07:00

这两个礼拜里，参与了PTTEENS的毕业演出，

乐坛洗冤大斗法之星光背后，

Behind The Scene。

很高兴有机会参与这个演出虽然是后期加入的，但还是做到很开心。

做了五场，每一场都带给我无限的感动，每一场的开始与结尾，我内心都会涌出一份感动。

看着他们热身，看着他们互抱，令我想起自己走过的那5年中学戏剧生涯。

演出这三天，遇到了许多朋友。

有认识很久了的朋友，刚认识不久的朋友，还有认识很久了但很久没见面的朋友。（多数都认不出我= =）

虽然这次演出我只负责操控Follow Spot，但其实我也学到很多灯光的东西。

谢谢你！凤琪学姐、姑姑！！

PTTEENS！恭喜你们！毕业演出成功！！

期待你们的毕业典礼吧！！~~~ 哈哈哈哈

Bloody Wisdom Teeth

2010-03-30T00:08:00.001-07:00

Went for a check up at my dad’s friend’s clinic, got a cleaning and filled up 3 holes, sweat……

Anyway, the worst part of it was my wisdom teeth, both my lower wisdom teeth from both sides erupted horizontally, and the roots and really near the nerves. Extracting it would be dangerous and complicated and most importantly, costs a lot!!!!

My god……A lot has to be done if I really want a bracing……

SHIT!

寻找情绪的桃花源

2010-03-21T17:46:00.001-07:00

320 身心灵嘉年华也告一个段落了。

将近9个小时的环境剧场，体验过了。

累 · 冷

演一个分不清自己爱男还是爱女的角色。

化上类似TIM BURTON的妆。

穿上紧紧的背心，绑上数条青色的布条，还有一个可爱的金色头饰。

就这样，筹备了一个月的演出，结束了。

虽然奶奶，老豆不在场见证我们，但他们的祝福我们收到了，更把它化为力量。

这次的演出，成功了，但没有杰出。

只算是顺利的演完。

感谢奶奶让我参与这次的演出，感谢准准找我们这一班新人，还有感谢伟大的ah June，为我们打包午晚餐。

希望以后我们还可以合作！=)

我的造型

怪兽天团

充实

2010-03-19T15:51:00.001-07:00

最近的生活真的是有史以来过的最充实的一次，真的是忙死了。

但是完成后真的是很有满足感。

自从大人不见了结束后，便开始另两个project。

3/12-3/15

Astro 小太阳营

这三天与小朋友的相处真的是难忘。

虽然，我负责的部门真的是累死了，

要带早操，

教唱歌跳舞，

还要带2组小朋友玩游戏！

但是，最后的来的，是小朋友的欢乐！

最后一天的团康，自己的情绪真的是压抑了很久，泪水差一点流出。

也是自己第一次忍住泪水。

我+大场组

我+NEMO姐姐的组！

收工咯。。。T-T

我带的团康~

以外的收获，谢谢你小朋友（忘记问你的名字=P),我很喜欢你的礼物！

穿着海盗服的大家~

这个营结束后，第二天立刻开动接下来的project，就是接近下来的320身心灵嘉年华的小品。

排了那么多次戏，终于来到这一天了！

今天就是演出了！一定要把全身的力量出入在内！！

今天后，便可以休息一会儿了！

过后接下来的工程，时间很紧抽！希望会顺顺利利，然后希望可以接另一个工程。

大家加油！！！！=)

祸不单行

2010-03-07T08:41:00.001-08:00

Do you know what is the meaning of 祸不单行？

祸 means misfortune

不 means no, in this case meaning not

单 means single

行 means happen

So the proverb means misfortunate events that happened not only once.

Today is the best day for me to describe this proverb.

Arrived early at Shaw parade this morning, the earliest in our record so far, at 9a.m.

Got ready for everything really quick as the 1st show of the day is starting at 11a.m.

The show started, went on, all fine, until the last part, where I got to become 水蜜桃弟弟 and participate in the show as a helper to prepare the sandwiches. Anyway, after the part, I rushed in the small , dark room at the side of the stage and cleaned up the dishes used just now.

Finished, switched off the lights, and got out and forgetting that the door was really short, I lifted up my head early and had a special gift from the edge of the door.

Immediately I felt some liquid flowing out from the top of my head, and was damn hot. But when I felt it with my hands, nothing was wrong, only the bruised pain from the bump.

And I thought that was it, bearing the pain from my head, I continued the other 2 more shows.

On the second show, at 4pm, I almost fell down during a part of the show cause of my dizziness.

And at the last show, at 8pm, at the final curtain call, I jumped and landed imperfectly and sprained my foot, or ankle, I don’t know, anyway, after that have to bump out some materials used back to TEA.

Bearing the pain from my head and my foot, I helped moved back the things to TEA.

And now, I’m feeling the signs of a fever coming on……..

And this is the story of my 祸不单行，thank you.

Happy~

2010-02-26T06:35:00.001-08:00

Finally got my freaking P-license for driving!

Got it at 10 a.m. in the morning before going to Kwang Hua.

Actually, I drove to Kwang Hua this morning ~

Felt good, finally go to be on the road even though my mom still insist on sitting beside me.

Anyway, got to hitch Barbara’s car to TEA later on so it’s good also for mom could drive back the car.

Not familiar with Auto cars yet but I’d get the hang of it sooner or later~

Another Happy thing is today’s Valentino’s Birthday~

Happy Birthday, Tino-san!

HaHa~

Hate your Lame Jokes BTW!

HAHA!

Hope I get to drive to KL soon.

-HATE BUSES-

成长？

2010-02-19T08:29:00.001-08:00

终于考到了驾驶执照；不过还没拿到啦。

昨晚，在床上不停反转······

脑海里不停出现车轮不过黄线的画面

整个驾驶测验我最不放心就是上山坡。

我真正成功100%的次数不多，十根手子数的完

加上排在我前面的人不合格了，让我压力大增

我上到山坡及踏煞车时的那一杀那，不敢往外看轮胎是否过线

几秒后便鼓起了勇气偷看一下，在黄线之内了！

我立刻举手，加上那位考官又用很愉快的语气告诉我

“47！ok！”

使我更加高兴！

接下去的泊车+3点转我早已熟手，

最后便顺利过关！

下一个环节，走马路，浪费了我45分钟的时间来等。

马路我更加有信心，加上那时很少卡车，我便很放心地踩油走~

那个考官在整个过程好像在发白日梦一样，

到了终点，那个考官还开玩笑的问我

“u tak mau pass a?”

结果他就好像很随便的够了几个，然后叉了3个

结果我就得了17分，过关了！

我下车的那一刻，我便知道了

我即将与manual车告别 xD

*不是我驾的，我随便在google找下来的照片*

··过几天后应该就会得到制造··

终于得到了

··梦寐了很久··

终于可以开始与巴士永别

··这算是成长了吗？··

终于可以无需依赖父母

交通问题终于可以解决了

··终于可以自己想去哪里就去那里了··

··爽-ing··

【】突然很想背包旅行到日本【】

··很想体验那樱花茂森的季节··

很想体验日本人的热情

很想体验日本的动画界

很想自己出去闯

但这应该要等到数年后才能实现吧

日本！我即将来咯！

*超想试试看住在这里面~*

钱

2010-02-10T06:25:00.001-08:00

钱不是万能的，

但没钱就万万不能！

这句话忘了从哪里听来的，但令我铭记在心中。

这几天，在家帮妈妈完成家里的大翻新还有努力学车，

都没出席制作。。。

但为了以后的日子能够更方便，

我只好趁现在还早尽快把车牌考到手来！

还有两堂课，就去考车了。。。

紧张？

没有。

害怕？

有。

有是因为担心不合格，浪费妈妈的钱重考。

还有害怕不合格了，耽误了以后的行程。

只要车牌到手，我就能为所欲为了！！！

哇哈哈哈哈哈~~~

傻了，竟然离题 = =|||

说到钱，就会说到即将来临的农历新年。

年轻人最常挂在口边的就是红包。

每一年，得到了红包，得到了里面的钞票，是不是应该很开心？

我以前一拿到红包就立刻躲在一边拆开来看的了多少钱。

刚刚问了妈妈，今年没有人请我们去他们家的Party吗？

她说有，但是我们回关丹，怡宝找亲戚，所以没去。

我想，哎，今年的红包一定少很多。

往年我们也有回去关丹等等，但过后还有去其他人的Open house

几年撞期了，没得去。。。

突然让我想到一件事，很矛盾的。

我们去拜年拿红包，

我们为什么有红包拿呢？

因为我们还年轻，还没结婚。

所以有的拿。

那么派红包的？

是结婚人士。

那么我们父母亲也是结婚人士（废话）。

他们就是派红包的，我们就是收红包的。

最后，我们也是没赚，没亏。

既然是这样又何必辛辛苦苦包红包，

然后分清楚哪一个给谁，

直接把钱给儿女不就行了吗？

现代人就是那样，根本忘了给红包的意义。

眼里就只有钱。

讨厌这个世界存在着钱。

如果这个世界没有钱，那又会是怎么样的呢？

《免费的世界》

免。费

避免付费

少了金钱，少了买卖，少了交易。

人类能够活下去吗？

没了金钱，就少了一份诱惑。

少了贪。

‘贪’是人性。

但少了金钱，还会有‘贪’得存在吗？

I Hate You Money…. But I Need You….

自我提升

2010-02-07T21:02:00.001-08:00

昨天算是正式上课了吧？

好累。

自从生活营后很久没有体会了上课的感觉。

昨天从2点上课到9点。

2点到5点上了老豆的演员基础课。

虽说上的课是很久以前刚进入戏剧时就上了的，

但是这次与全新的TEA2团员们上，果然与以前不同。

大家之间的LINK果然还很弱。

就如老豆说的，有时最简单的就是最困难的。

最原始的默契与信任课，我们挑战失败了。

6点到9点，奶奶的基本肢体训练。

一样的，课程之前都已经上过了，

但这次，发现到自己多了一股动力！

之前，做不到就算了，

这次，尽然会逼自己做下去！

自己最弱的开跨，开到最小的就是我，

如果是以前的我，一定就在那里埋怨，自暴自弃。

但昨天，我竟然逼自己下，多痛也下！

也许这股动力是来自明年的演出吧，

也也许是奶奶说的，想当学弟学妹的榜样。

最后一个活动，也是，上了好几次。

在去年的玛雅，上了两次。

第一次在宇雯姑姑的组，第二次是奶奶的组。

两次我都失败了。

昨天，我发觉到与前两次不同的是，

我的身体会不知不觉做了一些动作，而且还做得很顺畅。

我相信，只要我继续有着这份动力，

未来我一定能够做得到。

要多多练习‘含’跟‘提’ 还有‘冲’跟‘靠’了 xD

CNY

2010-02-06T05:09:00.001-08:00

Chinese New Year is around the corner…..

My room is still a mess…..

I promised myself and my mom that I’d clean up my room before it arrives but till now I’m still at 0…..

The guilt inside me is killing me, it’s affecting my mind……

At the beginning of January I promised my mom that I’d help her paint the house just to save up the RM1000 that was supposed to be the service fee charged by the Indian lawn mower……

Till now the house is finally 95% and I realized that I contributed a mere 10%…

The guilt inside me is murdering me once more…….

Finally, the last thing that finally put an end to my life……….

My mom finally bought us(me&bro) a new bed in replacement of our lousy old mattresses .

Beep…Beep…Beep…Beep-------------------------------------------------

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Alright, finished emo-ing .

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Had my driving lesson today, felt quite good, still hate manual cars BTW.

The instructor said I could take my test at the 6th day of CNY if I wanted to.

I said I’d reconsider because it was the day after I come back from my visit back to Kuantan.

After the lesson I went to Star Hill to have a meeting with Gramps Rorn about the Props production of the upcoming performance that had changed from <Bravo Aunty> to <Kak! Mari!> to now <大人不见了> .

Clearly it’s a large production and the props are quite hard to complete.

Anyway, had a check at my diary and found out that I’m starting to have a busy life.

February and March are fully booked!

This increases my need to get my driver’s license because I’m already starting to have bus-phobia .

I hate buses now.

They’re slow, full of disgusting scenes and etc.

When I mean slow, I mean the time they take off.

Especially the bus that takes me home.

It won’t take off until the bus is full…….-y packed with passengers sitting and standing!

Just now, I spent 30minutes in the bus that leads to Kapar waiting for it to take off.

I got so frustrated at that moment.

I hate BUSES!!

And I stumbled across this video, infamous local rapper Namewee’s latest production.

The lyrics are, as usual, true and hilarious !

Enjoy~

HeLL Day

2010-01-30T20:50:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was like hell day for me. I really thought yesterday’s expenditure wouldn’t be more than RM40(including the fee for an expensive stage play ticket and lunch+dinner).

In the end the total expenditure yesterday was Rm57.50(Excluding lunch+dinner).

OMG, felt like crying…… T-T

Went to Kwang Hua in the morning as I planned to hitched Milo’s car to KL. In the journey to Kwang Hua, I suddenly received a message from Grandpa Rorn indicating that there is a function that requires immediate help that afternoon and the location is at Shah Alam. I immediately remembered that Milo’s said that he was going there that afternoon so without further ado I asked him and found out that he was just sending uncle Azov there. So I agreed to help grandpa and followed uncle Azov there. I also informed Jacklyn about it and she also went there. And I found out too the function was actually an annual carnival by Astro!

Did some cutting and pasting the whole afternoon and till 6pm we finally had to leave for KL. We hitched Janice’s car and her mother dropped us somewhere near the Klang Central. We walked there before reaching Klang Central, we were halted by an Indian cab. He scolded us for walking there because that area was infamous for robberies etc. We also found out that Klang Central did not had a bus heading to KL!!! Out of desperation and exhaustion we finally agreed to take the cab to Tun Sambathan. It cost RM55!!!! T-T.

In the end we reached there early and hungry .

End of HeLL day .

GrEEd & SelFishneSS

2010-01-28T20:56:00.001-08:00

Greed is like a color pencil,

it colors the world by adding in Anger and Hate and Dispute.

Imagine the world without Greed.

Robbery and rape will disappear from the news.

No more social issues will appear in our sight.

The world will be free from crime.

The absence of greed will change everything.

And all will live happily ever after.

Selfishness is also like a color pencil,

it also colors the world by adding in Anger and Hate and Dispute.

Imagine the world without selfishness too.

Robbery and Rape will also disappear from the news.

No more social issues will appear in our sight too.

The world will be free from crime also.

The absence of selfishness will also change everything.

And all will live happily ever after.

Which is the root of the other?

Does selfishness lead to greed? Or greed lead to selfishness?

Are we greedy because we are selfish?

Or ,

Are we selfish because we are greedy?

The question will continue in a debating session that will last for centuries and end up without an answer.

We live a short life,

therefore we are encouraged to live our life to the fullest.

To live our life to the fullest,

we need a colorful world,

full of excitement and challenges.

Without Greed and Selfishness,

there won’t be such a world,

there may be no more crime,

there may be no more danger,

BUT

;the absence of greed in developers and entrepreneurs will cause the Domino’s effect and our lives would be changed.

;the absence of selfishness in developers and entrepreneurs will also cause the Domino’s effect and our lives would also be changed.

Without greed and selfishness,

there will be NO dreamers,

there will be NO champions,

there will be NO Success,

there will be NO developers and entrepreneurs.

Greed and Selfishness is Human Nature.

A considerate amount of it is needed in order to have a balanced life.

And this proved impossible by our society,

our people,

our education,

our government,

our country

and

ourselves.

乐中带悲

2010-01-26T22:16:00.001-08:00

昨天在Patrick的Studio拍了TEA 剧场十周年的个人照。

发生最pekcek的事就是我的Eye Liner的妆一直模糊掉，变成我的眼睛成了烟熏妆 T-T 不过还是要谢谢大姐替我化了妆，然后一直补救，最后拍出来的照是没有烟熏效果的！^^

拍了出来，真的很女人= =，加上我穿的衣服是戏炬奖那天穿的冷衣外套，更加GAY xD反正我要走中性路线~ 哈哈！！

拍完了照，没过多久，眼睛又开始呈现烟熏妆 = =" 算了，放弃！ XD 反正拍了照~

拍了照后，等待着大叔公的到来。。。。。

这时，发生了如题的事

大叔公宣布了，所有报名去ASTRO 小太阳的营的人都被录取，无需面试了！

大家听了直接兴奋起来~！我心里也开始准备面对400+位小朋友~XD

索取了开会的地点后，便准备离开。

9哥载了我们到Mid Valley让我们塔巴士回家。

坐巴士的路途中，我们就谈起了那个营的事。

然后就谈起了光华的特普斯。。。

撞期了。。。我们无法出席特普斯。。。

我口中虽然是说无所谓，看录影就好了，但是心里还是觉得不舍。

毕竟是我们离开后，第一次回去看他们搞演出，

而且我们也算过了，扣掉我们以外，只剩下不多bekas大概会出席。。

我想出席，但又答应了那个营，只好放弃。。。

这又是一个抉择。。。又要做选择了。。。哎。。。

不管如何，当天演出我一定会抽时间出来精神上支持你们的！！

吧生光华国中戏子研究会！冲！你们是最好的！加油！~

对或错？

2010-01-24T21:46:00.001-08:00

如今社会现象最常看到的，除了‘海鲜大餐’以外，另一个蛮流行的现象就是‘帮我写名字集团’ ！！

其实之前我都很少留意到这些人，好象有时在咖啡店吃午餐时，突然会有XXX机构的义工拿着一堆File照片等，然后一开口都是同样的一句话：先生/小姐/小弟弟/小妹妹你好，我是来筹款给孤儿、院残障人士等的。。。。。bla bla bla。。。。

通常我都会直接摇头，有时会看着他笑一下，有时理都不理他。

这现象，虽然说不是100%都是骗人的，但是那少许不是骗人的几八仙我又哪里会懂是谁呢？

其实这些还好，你摇头他就走，唔会佐住我吃饭。不过可恶的是那些‘帮我写名字集团！’这个集团是我自己取的，因为实在是太生气他们了！

这些人呢，就会一起穿一样的衣服，然后说他们是代表什么学院出来做实习还是什么的，然后会叫你帮他写一个名字，而且嘴里不停挂着“不用钱的！不用钱的！” 而那时的我，非常赶时间，便随便跟他写一个名字就算了。哪里知道，一写完名字，他就突然从Bag里面拿出一些吊饰品等等，然后叫我们支持！赶时间的我直接愣着几秒钟，然后很生气的说“给我最便宜的。。。” 我以为算了，给他个十元当破财挡灾算了，哪里知道他还贪心得要我帮他买100元的，他就可以收工！

生气到我！！！！！！！

可是那是干时间，没办法，而且他们又有大概20个人吧，我们才4个人= =

结果就随便请他个20元快快跑路算了。。。

这般废材实在太废材了，我甘愿把二十元交给那些路边卖艺的人也不要给这些废材！！！

那件事后，我非常讨厌那些人，就是你走路到一半突然有人跑过来跟你聊天的那些人。

另一个现象就是那些做part time派宣传单的人。这些人其实很辛苦，因为派完所有宣传单才有粮出。可是偏偏很多人因为怕了之前那一些废材，所以连宣传单也不敢拿。我呢，就是有人给我纸，我就拿罢了，如果他开口跟我聊天我直接给回他然后说赶时间。

这种case我也遇过，就是走在Time Square那个桥要过去Sg. Wang的时候，那个 XXX电话公司在做宣传。他就给了我一张宣传单，我也拿了。然后他就开始聊天，我那时跟他说我赶时间（那时真的赶时间），哪里懂我自己都还没有给回他宣传单，他自己拿回去了= = ，现实到~~！！

经过这几件case后，本人真的对这些人有一点反感，甚至想臭骂他们。

但是我始终还是心软的那一种人。

昨天中午，塔车到TEA。在巴士里很不幸遇到了一般‘超级海鲜大餐’！而且是马x人！！

我当时心情直接受影响，整个旅程都好像很EMO这样。

结果到了Tun Sambatan，更惨的是他们跟着下车！！！！！

我直接把脚步调快100倍。

结果很不幸，错过了一班的monorail。

我就很EMO这样的跑到一边站住。

突然有一个印度人uncle，跑来跟我聊天。（我那时超级pekcek，心里想着OMG）

我就随便咯，陪她聊天，聊英语也好，可以展现我的英文~哈哈！ = =

聊聊一下，我突然feel到了他的目的。他就一直跟我complaint，博同情，说他的motor轮爆了，然后身上不够钱回家。

那时我脑里分析着两个可能性：

i)来骗钱的= =

ii)不好意思开门见山直接来借钱。

我重复的问回了2次他想去的地方在哪里，好让我在分析一下子。

结果我还是决定借了二元给他。

结果我也没理会到他是真是假，但万一是真的话她真的回不到家，然后我良心的会过不去。

借了给他，他在下一站就下车了，跟他bye bye时，心里突然很开心。虽然不能百分百确定他是真是假，但对我来说心理上我是帮助了他的！

就让我想起了在营里Amelia告诉我们的，戏剧是没有对或错的！

梦想

2010-01-23T02:35:00.001-08:00

刚看完第十七集的《美丽高解像》，突然被一段戏感动到。

高青因为毁了容，对自己失去信心，想放弃演戏。

直到她妈妈对她说的那番话后，我眼泪都飚了出来，

因为让我想起了昨天的一件事。

昨天，到StarHill 与Phillip Wong开会。

终于有了机会认识他。

从以前初三参与全国赛时认识了他后，现在终于有机会更进一步的认识他。

以前就觉得他的人很感性，超感性，说说话就会流泪。

昨天开了会，他突然问来了一个问题，而且一问就是问我。

我当时吓到，因为从来没有人问过我这个问题。

想了想，就回答了他：我想当演员。

顿时，自己突然好像醒了过来，

突然想起了自己当初为何会想参与戏剧

想起自己以前是多么羡慕电视机上的角色，

想起自己以前常模仿电视剧里的情节，台词，角色。

想起以前表演后，观众的掌声，欢呼声。

想起自己多么喜欢表演。

Phillip Wong 说他从6岁开始就想当现在的他。

虽然途中真的遇到不少风雨，不过他依然坚持到现在。

这就是他的梦想。

然后我又想起了看着我长大的MiLo老师，

他也一样，为了梦想坚持到现在。

我再想起自己从几岁开始就喜欢模仿电视剧里的演员，

我忘了。

不过，这都不重要，重要的是现在我终于清楚了自己的梦想是什么。

大家一起为自己的梦想冲啊！！！

为天下所有最求自己梦想的人鼓掌欢呼！！！

最初的梦想

词：RYON、MILO

我曾经滿懷力量选择了远走他乡

也曾远离过梦想忘了记忆的芬芳

心灵偶尔会缺氧无法跨越过心墙

如今我抬头仰望准备再一次飞翔

堅持了我的信仰看到了那道光芒

实现梦想的黑箱等着我将你照亮

心海不停在荡漾只因信念与倔强

不畏惧跌跌撞撞势必站在舞台正中央

酸甜苦辣我们共同酝酿聚光灯下一起分享

不管受过多少的伤因你而坚强变得有力量

所有戏子欢喜齐聚一堂紧握成果带来的奖

為了彼此喝彩鼓掌最初的梦想再发光发亮

甜苦辣我们共同酝酿聚光灯下一起分享

路途荆棘决不投降因你能体谅变得有力量

这里聚集了北调和南腔心火成就了戏炬奖

喝彩掌声响彻云霄我再次实现最初的梦想

我期盼我向往坚持在你的世界翱翔

不退缩再往上我们能将你变得不一样

我们都将会变得不一样

学车风云

2010-01-21T19:03:00.001-08:00

开始是以为年轻的uncle教的

很好人一下，不会骂人的，而且会突然睡着，更爽，没有人烦！

要驾回家时，换来一个老的uncle，而且不是驾Kancil，是他的Saga！

Uncle: Start Engine…..踏Clutch，踏油，一号，转。。转！转！转完它！爬上去咯！

我: Oh…. = =

Uncle: Ok, 出去停住先，等没有车才出去，Ok，出！出！你等什么？出！（明明有lori来着= =）

我: Oh, Oh… = =

Uncle: Ok, 踏油，踏clutch，二号，踏油，踏clutch，三号………，wei，wei！我有叫你踏油咩？Uncle讲什么你才做什么！不要自己来。

*Gay gay 的电话铃声响*

Uncle: Halo? 6%&^$^*^(( （整堆福建话，讲很快懒惰分析他讲什么）

突然他的手一直在我面前feng来feng去，都不懂他要做什么，他又一直讲电话。然后他又突然一直打我的手，我还是不懂他在做什么= =。

他终于肯kap电话

Uncle: 你看不到前面有什么的啊？人家停你就停啦，不要去追人家，人家停你去追人家，人家走路你去停，这个是驾车咩？

我：。。。。无言= =（前面的那辆lori明明就很远，而且没有要停 zzz）

Uncle: 你自己要懂得分析，不要什么都要人讲你才做，懂吗？（你刚才说你讲什么我才做什么，不要自己来，现在你叫我自己来= =*吐血* zzz）

然后他又听电话 zzzz

PekCeK zzz

我太贪心了

2010-01-16T04:35:00.001-08:00

想不到我学了那么多年的戏剧，竟然会口出其言！

我对我自己太失望了！

对不起！！！对不起让了你们失望的人！！！

我发誓，永远不会再说那两个字！！！

还有，我会按部就班！

不会再那么贪心和心急了！

sorry，打错电话

2010-01-11T12:21:00.001-08:00

*sony ericsson 铃声响*

：hello？

：hello，billy仔啊？

：吓？？

：billy仔啊？

：哦，唔系，你打错电话

：哦，ok

*家电话铃声响*

：hello？

：(*&$*((*&^&***??

：吓？

：请问*&&——）*（&）*（）在吗？

：呃。。。等一下啊。。。

~妈！电话！~

：hello？

：彩华啊？

：不是，你打错电话

·嘟嘟嘟……·

*家电话铃声响*

：hello？

：喂，请问Mdm. Wong.在吗？

：你等一下

~妈！电话！~

~谁？~

~不懂~

：喂？

：喂，你好，我是xxx部门的 x先生，我是打来通知你获得免费旅游配套一个，我只需要你的一些资料。

：har？我没有报名什么旅游配套wor

：这是幸运抽奖抽出来的

：我也没有参加什么抽奖wor

：哦，你最近有去到Giant 对不对？

：没有哦

：还是Tesco？

：也没有哦

·嘟嘟嘟……·

*sony Ericsson 铃声响*

：hello？

：喂，您好，我是来自xxx公司的x先生，恭喜你成为了本公司幸运抽出的大赢家！（大陆呛）

：哦，是啊？可是我没有参加什么抽奖活动哦

：哦，本公司是从电讯公司获得全国各地的联络号码，然后随机抽出的。

：真的？

：没错

：那你告诉我母亲的电话号码

：呃。。抱歉啊，我目前不在电脑旁边，无法搜寻到您母亲的号码，我知道你想确定自己是否被骗，不如我念一念你的电话号码？

：你念我的电话号码有屁用啊？如果你不懂你怎样打给我？

：呃。。也对。。不如我直接告诉你如何得奖好不？

：呃。。也好。。你说说看

：我说了你要做哦！嘻嘻

：哦。。he he he = =

：首先你必须申请加入会员

：什么会员？

：本公司的会员啊

：那不是跟骗钱集团一样

：不一样，加入会员不需收费，只需填写一些个人资料

：你不是说你有电讯公司的资料吗？干嘛还要我填？

：呃。。电讯公司的资料不齐全，还有一些资料必须你自身提供

：哦。。好的。。

：请问你的电邮地址是什么？林先生？

：林先生？你打错电话。。。

·嘟嘟嘟…………·

*家电话铃声响*

：喂，请问xxx先生在吗？

：我是

：您好，我是代表xxx公司通知你成功获得旅游配套一份！

（又是旅游配套= =）

：哦，你等一下啊。。

~喊出：xxx！你的电话！~

：喂（按住鼻子说话）

：喂，请问你是xxx先生吗？

：是的，什么事？

：恭喜你！我时代便xxx公司通知你获得了旅游配套一份！

：去哪里的？

：巴厘岛5天4页~！

：har，我怕海啸咧，可以去日本吗？

：呃。。。可以，但是有一些手续必须更改

：哦，是啊？几个人可以去？

：只能一位

：har，这样我去干吗？

（我kap他电话）

·dududu………..·

这几个对话是我以前曾遇过的对话，现今社会有了电话，电脑，联络方式简单多了，但这个世界不是完美的。这些发明除了利，还带来了不少麻烦。

半夜睡不着，得空无聊中zzz

TEA

2010-01-10T03:55:00.001-08:00

TEA剧场，从初一认识了你

认识到现在，你带给我的感动，我每一刻都没忘记

自从初二的生活营后，更深一层的认识了TEA剧场，

本身突然间有了一股很大的自信，对表演上了瘾

很多事情真的是想不到的。

想不到，5年后，竟然有机会加入TEA剧场这一个大家庭！

昨晚，是第八届戏炬奖。像上一届，TEA入围了许多项目。

感谢爷爷+大叔公专业的眼光替我配了服装，

好让我不会第一次亮相就出丑。

第一次为TEA感到兴奋，紧张。

成绩被念出时，狠吓到的死命拍手，喊叫！

老豆得将时，心里真的是替他感到无与伦比的开心！

TEA得到的所有奖项，实至名归，名副其实。

TEA永远都是我的最爱！

谢谢你，TEA，栽培了我5年，

希望接下来的日子我们能够相处得愉快！

TEA2团 09/01/10

TEA剧场全家福 09/01/10

想念从前

2010-01-08T18:11:00.001-08:00

想念以前疯狂的日子。。。

ah yap ~当兵当得还好吗?

ah yan ~在干吗？做工了？还是peh着？xD

ah boon ~昨天才相聚zz 还很爽~xD

俊伟 ~pak toh 到怎样啊？做着什么？很闲？xD

进勤 ~昨晚突然播电来干嘛？想约我喝茶？xD

捷瑜 ~好久不见了。。。好像没了你的消息T.T

祖儿 ~wuwu~我们不同组了，不能常一起下TEA了。。。

诗杨 ~死鬼！没去生活营！哈哈，那天扮财神怎样？爽吗？xD

凌焉 ~咳嗽好了吗？不要在戏炬奖出丑哦！xD

Joanne ~无言~我们还会常见面xD

突然间很想念我们这一批。。。

想念初一的我们，单纯，傻傻的。。

想念初二的我们，小品里大家都很棒！

想念初三的我们，亚逊 VS 役寻 ~xD

想念初四的我们，公演加油！！失败= =”

想年初五的我们，公演再加油！成功！还有特普斯 ^^ 内训营！

现在的大家，是如何的呢？ MISS YOU ALL …. T.T

2010

2010-01-03T05:26:00.001-08:00

终于找到了一个时间来写blog~

生活营结束了。。最后一次当营员

哭得最惨，最多的也是这一次，

今年多了一个新的单元，让我回忆了许多以前的事情

尤其是毕业了的我，中学生涯的回忆果然从满酸甜苦辣

回想起自己以前笨笨的，肥肥的，

现在一直给人说廋= =…不知可喜可悲 zzz

2009，给了我很多回忆

第一次在朋友家倒数2009，过后乱打电话给老师们乱祝贺（中秋节快乐，吃月饼等）

第一次演了大型公演，还有演，又唱，又跳！

第一次当内训营的小老师，教导了新生们3天！

第一次出席班上的聚会

第一次看半夜场

第一次做了很多坏蛋事情

数不清的第一次，2009年，过得真快。。。

虽说充满不舍，但2010还是来临了

2010，新的一年，新的一切

旧的通通放弃掉

一切要开始过！

放弃了。。。真的放弃了。。。

从今只想专心在于其他方面，而不想想在这方面发展

祝你快乐

24/25 Dec 2009

2009-12-25T07:27:00.001-08:00

Spent these 2 days with my relatives from Kuantan , actually I’ve seen them quite frequently since the past few months because of some family conflict between my cousins but never been quite close to them like these 2 days.

Yesterday spend half the day at IKEA ,LOL! Boring? I know zzz. Anyway, I gay-ed my cute niece and nephew hehe.

See the hat? Reminds me of Stephen Chow’s 回魂夜， where he folded newspaper into hats and wore them and flew! xD

My Brother zzz

I’m too gay zzz

And in the night, my niece can’t stand to open the present my mom got her.

1st, after opening the wrapper was a telephone box, she really thought it was a telephone!

Then as she opens it, she found out……

A skirt!! xD

My nephew got a toy xD Ben 10 I think xD

Today, got up at 11 something and dyed my hair zzz

The result wasn’t obvious, well, sort of…..

Obvious? Maybe because of the lighting in the toilet zzz

To me it’s not really obvious zzzz My mom says its just right already, if I go too far I’d get whacked when I step outside xD.

Had dinner at Unique Seafood which was quite good, didn’t snap any photos back then so that’s all for these 2 days xD.

…

2009-12-22T07:46:00.001-08:00

I’m weak,

I’m useless,

I can’t stand the feeling,

the pain of not getting to be with you while I’m so close to you.

When will BF become BF….?

I’m useless…… T.T

I don’t want to be Vege Eater…. What should I do? Maybe this isn’t my thing, or it isn’t the time for me ……. Tired….. Hurt…. T.T

S7 Trip Day3

2009-12-21T05:04:00.001-08:00

Finally come to day 3, time to leave Genting…. When we reached Skyway, we witnessed a bunch of China tourist quarreling at the entrance LOL. It was so funny, the 2 guys were scolding each other 他妈的 and 是谁的错？谁的错？xD . Quite a good entertainment before leaving Genting xD.

We stopped at Bidor for lunch. Reached Pangkor Island around 4-5 pm . Got a shit room with lots of sand on the floor and a shit refrigerator with dirty shit water in the freezer zzz. Anyway, we left the cleaning job to the gals of course wakaka(we’re SO shit zzz) Went to have a short stroll at the beach later on, really short, around 5-10 minutes then we went back to the apartment to get ready for dinner.

Nice Sunset shot xD Even though not set yet xD.

Basically Day 3 was like that and ended quite fast …. Oh, we went back to the beach at night around mid night for another stroll. Got more bottles of vodka and drank at the beach. Sheep got drunk face already after drinking a few cups zzz

Day 4

Best day of the week LOL… Woke up early to get ready for Island hopping. Met the uncle that was in charge for our event of the day. He really was nice , including the explanations, the intros and the communication between us xD Loved the boat ride LOL, and it was raining a little bit too , the sea breeze was so cool xD

Only got 1 shot during the whole island hopping due to our hand phones and wallets all kept in the room .

The snorkeling were terrible zzz the water was so blur can’t see anything in the water zzz. We also played the famous banana boat and a new one called flying fish. The banana boat was boring and felt got scammed Rm15 zzz But the flying fish was cool xD Even though my arms almost fell off my body haha.

Paying Ah Yap for the Banana Boat and flying fish zzz

After the Island hopping, we gathered again for Lunch, I didn’t bath because there were not enough time to do so =P After the lunch , there were basically nothing else to do during the p[eriod to wait for night to come where we proceed to our next event, the sunset cruise xD

First of all, it was still raining so the sunset part was basically ruined haha xD Anyway we still got to feel the rainy breeze out side .

Me and Janice（our guai lan tourguide）

The whole shit group xD

I made a funny face 1st

Then got scold and made back a serious face xD

Just plain gay shit xD

Group PIC! hehe

BrotherHood Pose outside~~

Secondly, My Voice was dead so the karaoke inside of the boat is basically a no no for me too xD . The cruise were alright in the end hehe xD

Before we left back for the apartment, Sheep and I restocked some more Carlsberg for the night xD

Midnight we went to the beach again for the nice atmosphere xD

Wel also started a new game due to the boredness. Playing blackjack and the loser gets slapped on the lap by the winner xD. So basically being the banker either has the chance to slalp a lot of people or get slap by a lot of people haha!

Both my laps are already unusable ZZZ.

S7 Trip Day2

2009-12-20T23:58:00.001-08:00

Day2

Woke up between 6 and 7 am to clean up and go to Theme park. Me and Vhun weren’t in the mood at all to play the rides due to the presence of some people we disliked. So we went it and played the fun kart first which sucked because I got the lousy car and the max speed sucked zzz. After that Sheep and Yap wanted to play the thrill rides already but Vhun and me still weren’t in the mood for it so we left the group and ventured on our own, looking for something that we liked. Finally we spotted the outdoor Pirate’s Train( AKA outdoor haunted house) . The line was thoroughly empty and filled with children and Aunties so we went there 1st to start our “Guai Lan Spree” haha. As usual we teased other people secretly and acted afraid during the line and after the ride. It really was fun and satisfying to see the reactions of the aunties when we came out of the ride looking horrified and scared to death !! When we came out of the ride, laughter could be heard because our facial expressions were like freaking scared xD.

After that we went to line up for the Spinning Swings. I loved that ride LOL. During the line again me and Vhun teased other people secretly but out loudly . During the ride we were singing stupid songs and again act afraid xD. After the 1st round we can’t resist ourselves and went again and repeated everything xD. And then 1 hour was gone and we were really satisfied. After the ride, we wanted to play some thrill rides but the lines were damn long and then we came across the spinning cups . I loved this too because I won’t get dizzy at all even at top spinning speed . We spun like shit and Vhun can’t take the top speed and peh-ed xD. But he still helped spin even when he peh-ed xD and at the end we can’t stop spinning even after the ride already stoppped. I used a lot of strength to stop the spinner in the middle and finally stopped. I didn’t fell dizzy at all but Vhun already peh xD. After the cups we decided to go back to our rooms( I wanted to shit and Vhun wanted to sleep)

Took a SS pic when resting. *Hehe, thx for the shirt Jo~ I love it * xD

1pm was lunch time and was included so we don’t have to pay for it. After the lunch we continued outdoors but a lot of the rides were closed down due to weather and also some maintainence . In the end we went to those idiot rides like crazy science lab zzz. We only managed to line up for 1 roller coaster ride, the train mine thingy. Lined up for 1 hour there and a few Malays cut our line …. Me and Vhun kept missing our chance to sit in the train when it’s our turn because of those idiot MxxxxS keep snatching our seat. So me and Vhun didn’t sat the ride with the gang. Indoor Gay Train Ride At the Pondok At Outdoor

After that we went for Pizza dinner… again for me cause I just have that at the same restaurant last week with the DMC gang. Eat Pizza zzz

At night visited the underground car park mamak again for cheap supper.

Spent the rest of the midnight in the gals’ room playing cards and chatting stupid stuff. And that night the room became a zoo where we started to impersonate a bunch of animals and sang the stupid malay song~ ALLAH~~~ xx%^&%^E^%$^&^&% haha

Then went to sleep around 3 am.

GoodBye S7

2009-12-20T21:45:00.001-08:00

High School memories really are the most valuable ones. After High school, one develops responsibilities and start to mature. One steps in society finally not as a child but as a grown up. I parted with my lovely class yesterday at 6.00pm. Even though I did not get along 100% with all of them but there’s still a feeling inside me that made me shed a tear during that time. 2 years of memories started to flash across my mind, looking at everyone of them makes me can’t resist the tears to come out . Looking at all of them leave one by one really breaks my heart. I can’t help myself to hide at a corner and start crying. Even though there were times that we fought each other, quarreled and many more sour memories but in the end none of them were present during the whole trip and this what’s made me touched even more.

Day1

As I reached the ESSO Gas Station my brothers were still absent so I waited there by myself alone before departure. Got teased by a whole lot including kuek, monkey, weh cean and so on xD. Vhun them arrived quite late and after loading on their luggage proceeded to take a seat. The guy we hated the most came in and briefed us, ALVIN SHIT! haha…. It was a short journey as the bus was in good condition compared to some bus lol. Reached the skyway station and sat cable cars up to Genting.

My eyes looked like shit zzz

The 15 minutes were not boring at all with me and Vhun present haha. We started to talk crap and gay-ed around because there were 2 more passengers in the cable car excluding us.

After reaching Genting, proceeded to have lunch at a stupid restaurant (铜锣湾) Me and Vhun chose carefully and found a delicacy that attracted us and was cheap too!(Well compared to the other foods xD)--炸酱面

It only cost RM11 while those other noodles and rice cost Rm17++ And we ordered hot tea which cost RM2 and the total was Rm15 including tax charges xD. We were quite satisfied with our order , until the noodles came and looked like shit LOL. Well, since it’s me and Vhun, what else to do than criticized and gay around the food LOL. So we started to talk crap again and entertain our group. Oh yeah, our group during the whole trip was Me, Vhun,Sheep,Yap, Hui Mun ,and her 2 friends from Sri Lethia ,Bee hooi and SunWay(Woei) . We got along quite good during the trip xD.

Couldn’t get a Full shot due to me and Vhun and Sheep arriving to the destination late.=(

Anyway after lunch we proceeded to shopping (didn’t buy anything though) And went to check in to the hotel.

Met a cosplay Santa and took pics with them(I said:Excuse me I want stand in the middle) And pushed away the santa and the girl zzz

Lazed around to wait for 5.30 to go in Snow World. Hated Snow World lol. Due to the other gang from the other classes it was like hell inside it. After that went to Ripley’s Believe it or not. It’s the first time I went in so I was quite attracted to it even though there were rumors that it was damn boring xD. In the end ot was only me and Vhun appreciating those weird artifacts and took us 2 hours inside to finish it. The others were already gone. In the middle we also bumped in to Ling Yan and found out that she was slower than us. So she joined us and became our photographer zzz

Me and Vhun On the lucky chair Vhun on lucky chair

The door was opened so we crept inside to take pic

Pro chair! Read the secription below

vhun and me at the necktie section zzz

Still at necktie section Gay-ing at the books xD 偶像派？？xD Bluek~~ zzz

I love this shot xD

After 2 hours inside Ripley’s we finally reached the end lol. We left to find the other guys. The night was spent by lazing around Genting, we visited the underground car park mamak stall for a cheap dinner and went back to our rooms close to midnight. We gay-ed the girls for nearly an hour and then slept at 4am.

Last Day In Uniform

2009-12-14T07:44:00.001-08:00

Today really was emotional for me. I’ve waited so long for this day to come. Finally I’m free from these stupid low standard ‘Important’ Exams once and for all. To be honest, I didn’t really spend a lot of time studying. The only thing I’m proud of is I managed to memorize all 36 nilai and the definition in Moral. And that’s all I think, the other subjects I think I only went through a little bit and just go with the flow~ .

Today morning, put on my school uniform for the last time.

Can’t help it to take a picture of me in it for the last time xD.

Went to school and chatted a while with Vhun and the exam began. Felt like I was gonna die I started to read the 1st Text. And I turned to the next page and was also damn hard = =” Anyway, finished the paper eventually. And for Paper 1 , I chose the 1st question for both sections. I just simply did section A and started focusing on section B. I chose question 1 which entitled 别让生命留白. I was quite happy with it, for I used a love story between an AIDS patient and her lover to bring out the meaning of living life to the fullest . As usual I wrote it like a novel as I usually do with Chinese and English Essays. Finished it and had 10 more minutes to spare. There were already a lot of people leaving the exam hall early. I wasn’t that stupid to leave early, I wanted to experience the moment the paper is collected and release the happiness within me that time ha ha. After 5 minutes of emotional release and another 10 minutes of a meeting about the class trip which we are going tomorrow, went to Centro Neway to have a Karaoke Session with my fellow Form 5 Drama buds~

Before going to Centro, snapped a pic with Vhun in our uniforms for the last time!

5 hours were spent in the Karaoke room and it was so fun! Eventhough it was expensive, Rm20/pax for the room and a little food is included only. Sang our shit out for the 5 hours . FYI, it was also the first time I stepped in a KTV for this year = =. After Karaoke ~

It has finally come to an end, this wonderful journey in high school. I’ve experienced all kinds of sweet and sour during the journey, but all of them are valuable memories in my life and I would never forget them.

Last night I used up 1 hour’s time to edit this video, containing all of my drama memories. I would find the time to edit another 1 with my class memories’. Kiwi, this is for you, Thanks for giving me such lovely memories, LOVE YOU.

*If the singing sucks, I don’t care, as long as I’m happy ha ha! xD*

In The mood For Shit [2]

2009-12-07T02:42:00.001-08:00

Shit, I’m 17 and I don’t act like one,I don’t even look like one. I’m 17 years old, meaning that I’ve lived for 17 years in my life. Group Studying at a friend’s house is really dangerous??? I would get kidnapped? WTF bullshit is this. I’ve had it with all these bullshits from him. I’m 17, my brother is 13. He gets more freedom and less nagging than me. He gets to have a fun day at Bukit Tinggi with his friends and doesn’t need to report back home for safety and I, studying at my friend’s house is required to report back home. What is this? He gets back home and the ‘nagging’ he gets from him is a simple question ‘watch movie ah?’ And I, get a phone call from him and get yelled and scolded by him. He even wanted to talk to my friends and yelled at them. WTF is this? I can’t take this anymore you know? You are making me hate you every second you do that to me you know? If you say you are extremely concerned about me? I don’t really see it. You called 6 times and I didn’t took the call because I switched on silent mode and you resolve to threatening me by saying that you seek help from the police? Your lousy and fake acting can’t fool me please. I’m from the DRAMA club excuse me, you think you can frightened me by acting you reported to the police? OMG. When can you start treating me like a 17 year old? He goes to Bukit Tinggi to watch a movie, 2 movies and went back home the time just like I went back home now, and I don’t think he called back to confirm any shit to you! And did you treat him the way you treat me? I went for group study at a friends house, what do you think his house would be broken in by burglars? What the nonsense are you talking to me about? The more I think about it I get damn pissed off. I’m 17 for the GOD’s SAKE, 17, why all my friends are treated like one and I am not? If I went to hang out at shopping centers or do something bad then I’m speechless, but I’ve informed her already that I’m studying at a friend’s house, not wasting time doing nothing! LOL and another excuse you gave me is that I shouldn’t bring the damn phone if I’m afraid that it would bother me during study. If I didn’t bring it, I would just give you another excuse to scold me to hell LOL. You are making stupid excuses just to save your face and me to admit that I’m wrong! I can’t understand.

WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME? WHY?WHY?WHY? I’M 17 ! I’M 17! YOU KNOW HOW HURT IT IS FOR ME? YOU YELLING AT ME AND AT MY FRIENDS IN THE PHONE?WHY YOU NEVER DO THIS TO MY BROTHER? WHY? PLEASE, FORGET ABOUT YOUR DAMN FACE OK? YOU’LL ONLY MAKE US HATE YOU MORE! I KNOW YOU ARE A PRO AT HOLDING YOUR TEMPER IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIENDS AND RELEASING IT OUT AT US RIGHT? NOW OF THESE DAYS YOU CAN’T EVEN KEEP YOUR TEMPER IN FRONT OF RELATIVES. YOU ARE EMBARASSING US.

I DID NOT CAME BACK HOME 3 IN THE MORNING, I CAME BACK HOME AT 6 PM AND I SAT MY FRIEND’S CAR WHICH I SAT FOR ALMOST A MILLION TIMES AND NO ACCIDENT OR WHATSOEVER HAPPENED.

MY BROTHER CALLED JUST AFTER HE FINISHED HIS MOVIE AND MY MOTHER WENT TO BUKIT TINGGI TO FETCH HIM AND THAT TIME WAS THE USUAL JAMMING TIME.

YOU DON’T YELL AT HIM LIKE HE KILLED SOMEBODY.

YOU CALLED ME 6 TIMES AND AT THE 7TH TIME YOU TRHEATENED ME THAT YOU REPORTED TO THE POLICE THAT I’M MISSING,THEN YOU YELLED AT MY FRIEND WHEN HE WAS JUST PROVING THAT I’M SAFE AND NOTHING HAPPENED.

SO THAT’S YOUR WAY TO SHOW THAT YOU CONCERN ABOUT ME HUH? I’M SO GOD DAMNED TOUCHED.

Brothers Outing

2009-12-03T23:38:00.001-08:00

Lousy SPM, wasting so much time on it lol. And I don’t mean I studied a lot for it. It’s killing the crap out of me lol. It’s taking a month to sit for 10 days of an exam.

Anyways, yesterday after Physics paper I went straight home to laze around and planned to take a nice nap where the previous night I only spent around 4 hours of it.

1 hours passed and suddenly received an anonymous call. Just as I heard the voice I knew it was Vhun zzz. He said he and sheep are coming to fetch me. I got shocked for a moment and then agreed to follow them out. The plan was swimming because there’s another gang going that time. I couldn’t find my trunks anywhere so I just wore my white 70% shorts.

We went to Chin’s shop 1st, planning to gay her and attempt to convince her to go with us. In the end we sat there for half an hour talking crap and failed to bring her along.

Anyway, we called up the other gang and found out they wasn’t going swimming anymore because of the lousy weather that looked like it was going to rain at that time. We discussed a while and went to BS’s house. We waited outside and honked the horn a couple of times but no reply was given. Made another call to Sheney and found out they were at Bkt. Tinggi already. We got quite pissed off that time. Felt like shit, didn’t got informed at all. And we wasted some time going to their house and honked for a few minutes. Anyway, after some more discussion, we decided to go to Captain’s condo to have the swim. And in the end, only the 3 of us went swimming xD.

Managed to snap some gay pics thanks to Captain xD.

Thanks sheep for the refreshment xD.

Anyways, got back home around 7pm. Planned to laze around again.

But, got another invite from Chin to hang out at Old Town opposite of my house. I declined at the beginning but couldn’t resist and went eventually . Sat there for a couple of hours and went back zz.

2009-11-12T16:29:00.001-08:00

享受与你在一起的时刻

只要你快乐我无所谓

我愿意等

正式毕业

2009-11-09T07:48:00.001-08:00

一切真的结束了。

中学生涯，戏剧班

这两样在我生命中留下了无数美好的回忆

虽然，路上遇到的挫折不少

但最后还是走到这一点了。

跑完了这一场5年的马拉松，是时候歇一歇吗？

不，还得经过最后一关，过后就必须面对期待已久的挑战。

戏剧，你改变了我。

你彻底地改变了我。

我人生遇见的每一个人，我都会牢牢记在心中。

我们这一批毕业生，11个人一起毕业，真的是难得。

昨晚确实累了，心情上真的累了。

眼水浅的我，从那感动的一幕开始后，便不停的流泪。

往年，都想象着自己离别的那一刻，

终于到自己说出那最后一句话时，

肯定是哭的稀里哗啦的。

昨晚，竟然还没到我之前，就已经把泪水差不多哭完，还差一点脱水。

因为之前没准备到要说些什么，当时便理性了起来。

看着所有的学弟学妹，真的不知道要说什么。

很讨厌自己，理性起来时，脑子里就会让我尴尬。

这5年，最遗憾的是我竟然错过了Frankie老师时代。

别误会，我初一的每一堂课都有上到。

那遗憾的是竟然没有和那时的伟杰啊，国文啊，仁俊啊一起疯。

心机？我根本懒得去想什么心机，什么勾心斗角的。

简直就是自讨苦吃嘛。

安分的做好自己，享受每一刻，已经足够了。

到了终点，并不是真正的终点。

而是另一端马拉松的起跑点。

相信这一段马拉松会比前一个的加倍辛苦。

但我相信，凭着这5年累积起来的回忆，已经足够让我撑下去。

毕业的这一刻

我感受了。

再见光华，再见奇异果王国，再见5S7。

Graduation & Reunion

2009-11-07T04:57:00.001-08:00

1st , graduated already, not a high school student anymore. Time to be fully matured. Objectives clear and future missions checked.

Really really love my class now. Yesterday after graduation performance( which we rocked the whole hall) , we started to full fill our 5S7 tradition. Each boy must get ‘Arubah’ once at least. Even Foo Hsern and Banana willingly let us ‘Arubah’ Ha Ha, that proves we really do appreciate our last time to be as naughty as that ^-^. We gay-ed some teachers at the parking lot which were leaving including ( Pn. Pavanie, Mr. Ng Kok Chuan and soon) Then some picture takings were undergone. The most regret is that i didn’t had the chance to snap photos with the other friends I know from other classes.

Being at Kwang Hua really was a unique journey. 5 years had been used up and I tried my best not to leave any regrets behind. Even though till now my 1st love is still here T-T.

After that we went for a gathering at the old JJ with Pn. Pang. We stayed there for almost 2 hours and parted ways there with Pn. Pang.

The next part of our gathering continued at Chin’s house. Her dog is so freaking cute!!!!!!!! LOL

During midnight, something unhappy happened….. Don’t want to mention this issue just to prevent my mood to go down now.

Once again, loved to chat with Tieng because of our similar personalities and our hardships in love. And now I’m announcing that I reunited with my LONG LOST BROTHER!! ?? !! ??

me + tieng

When we took this picture we were like…. OMFG lol…. we look so alike xD

Freaky right? xD

Well, we chatted a lot about our hardships in love till 3 a.m. and he sent me back home and I went to bed.

Short post today, because of the tiredness that I kept from yesterday till now. Continue on Monday after my Drama MP tomorrow.

毕业前夕

2009-11-05T07:11:00.001-08:00

2009年11月5日

我睁开沉重的眼皮，揉搓眼中的眼屎，懒散地起床梳洗。

像平常地打开电脑荧幕，花了十分钟的时间按这按那。

喝了妈妈准备好的枇杷膏参水，便坐上5年内每天坐着上学的车。

二十分钟后，到达校门口，像平常一样对妈妈说大同小异的一句话与道别，便走向校门口去。

来到班上，这一年来上课的班上，在二楼D座的左角落。看着这几个礼拜一样的画景，人数寥寥无几。奇特的是，今天来了许多人。

大家视乎感觉到今天就是大家与老师在班上聚在一起的最后一次。

彭瑞芳老师，我们的级任老师，踏入了我们班上。大家再次寻找座位坐，努力的听老师说的话。虽然今天像往常一样，少不了我的必杀技，无敌‘嘘’，但大家视乎感觉到有了一家人的感觉。老师与每个人说了一番话，尤其是给没呈上周记完结篇的同学。大家都很仔细地聆听老师给的最后劝告与评论。

俊华因得了1000零吉奖金而买了个大蛋糕，送给全班及所有教导我们的老师。我们就在彭老师最后即将离开我们班的时候进行切毕业蛋糕仪式。

这时，不幸的事竟然发生了。【她】凭着她‘壮大’的身材及惊人的‘样貌’，还有一头乌黑的杂发，一脸像臭了一整个月的鸡蛋那样臭走了进来我们的班。他一开口便使出了失传已久的‘狮吼功’，而且是超高平率的惹人厌声音。大家顿时静的连蚊子呼吸的声音都听得到。2至3秒后沉静就被大家的唧唧声消灭，赶紧把蛋糕盖起来。

这时，心里的内疚顿时涌流出来，因为老师流泪了。第一次看到老师如此的哭泣，眼水浅的我，眼眶也开始呈现一层薄如纸的泪水。

除此，第一次看到班上幼稚调皮的俊华流泪。他的心意，就这样被【她】拿走了。

5年，就读这间学校。回忆，自然而然的分类了成

酸，甜，苦，辣。

过程中，体验的每一类都不少。每个人都只想要甜。

但如果没有其他三类，你哪来的甜？

你会珍惜每一个甜蜜的回忆吗？

没有了苦，那要甜的来干嘛？

人生有起有跌，哪里跌倒就在哪里爬回起来。

如果你从来都没有跌倒过，那自然也不用爬回起来。

但你人生要来干嘛？

我们在错误中学习，再尝试，后来的成功，才会得到最大的满足感。

这才是人生。

今天虽然成了一个苦涩的回忆，但至少我们曾今像今天一样相聚过，一起‘即将切蛋糕’，一起向【她】顶嘴，一起哭泣，一起互相安慰，一起阿鲁巴，一起排练。

2009年11月5日中学生涯毕业前夕。

祝所有我在这旅程中认识到的人

身体健康

心想事成

祝所有即将离开吧生光华国民型中学的人士们

一路顺风

有缘再见

Unforgettable Night

2009-11-01T09:19:00.001-08:00

Wow, tonight turned out to be a fantastic night and a lot of things happened!

1st, we went to the Fund Raising concert at my primary school’s newly built , air-con equipped hall. Because we( me, vhun n yang) were really friends will Mr. Lim so he got us some tickets for it for FREE xD. That’s the 1st part.

We went there , thinking that it would be another boring night and so we decided to Gay around xD. We really did a lot of idiotic things like shouting irritating phrases( we love you, etc) when nobody dared to shout , and also irritated the audiences in front of us. After the concert ended, we stayed back for a swift photo taking session on the stage. We also gay-ed around with Mr. Lim and it paid off! We joked with Wang Chun’s father and got ourselves some places at the restaurant they are having their supper at!

We proceeded to the restaurant and went in with Mr. Lim . And at our 1st sight was 黄俊源 and 钟晓玉！We were like so excited and it really was difficult to hold down the feeling to ourselves! We went to sit with Mr. Lim and started to scan around for other performers and found 罗忆诗 and 陈势安 at the table beside us! We almost went to snap photos with them until some guy wearing specs appeared and told us to wait until they finished eating zzz. So we just had to wait and continue to hold down that agonizing exciting feeling to ourselves xD. After a few moments, we really couldn’t take it anymore and went to take pictures with 陈势安 and 罗忆诗。At 1st we only got a group photo with them. But me, founded an opportunity when everybody was taking group photos with the other stars. I spotted a free one and went right up to have a solo 1 took with them xD. And I continued this strategy with 罗忆诗。 Too bad I only got to take photos with the 2 of them. The others went off really quickly.

Thx Mr. Lim for the splendid night!!

The experience was so damn awesome xD. Really a flashy ending for our final moments in high school!

1024 Triple Kill(Part 2)

2009-10-26T08:10:00.001-07:00

I’d figure I’d skip the crap talk and just caption the photos for this part lol.

look down~

now look up!~ look…where?!?! The Brotherhood! Double Emo kia lol

3 Gay Kia on the roof ??

Barn Buddy??

Thx Xiao Ling’s parents!Gay Shit!凸囧!! ah yap!!Pet for sale!Down again~

Act Bosszzz

三个男人。。。Thriller!!!Zombie Land Pattern…Pattern again…On the grass!!4 Gay Kia+Po Tieng’s awesome Hips!!三个好人…The Brotherhood Again!!All peh drunk shit ==Me+YangBarn Buddy again!!!

LOL, that night really was photo snapping crazy!! Wow, looks like we really had 1 gathering minimum every month! !st was 828, then 925 and now 1024!! cool lol!

Love you 5s7! muacks ~~~(^3^)~~<3

1024 Triple Kill (Part 1)

2009-10-25T07:55:00.001-07:00

LoL, not the DotA triple kill ok? Its that today I went to 3 different places and did 3 different stuffs.

1st up,

morning dance practice at Berkeley Basketball Court. At first I wasn’t eager to go because I had tuition that morning and in the noon had a drama booked at KLPAC long time ago.Then I found out that Berkeley was quite near school so I went anyways, hitched Tieng’s car there of course. We went quite early, around 9.20am and tuition starts at 10 so I was quite worried that mom would find out about my truant play =P. Anyways, we fetched monkey at school and Shene+ her sis at their house and went to Berkeley for breakfast. Thanks again to Shene’s church mates for the generous breakfast, which was really great for me because later on had to use up quite a bunch of money at KLPAC for the tickets. We started practice officially at around 11.30am as for the late bugs. As usual, I always get hooked up by the song and even though I promised my self to stop and rest a while after the current song, I won’t when it repeats after it finishes lol. Anyway, they continued to test out more stunts as I prepare to leave for the next event. KLPAC xD.

2nd,

walked to Berkeley Corner at 1pm, and I thought it was just a short distance but turned out to be quite far! Which resulted to my current sun burn at my arms and face. Anyway, waited there for Sze Ying for nearly 30 minutes. The journey really was a Las Vegas gamble because neither of us have full experience by car to KLPAC. We left our lives in the hands of a mere paper, where Sze Ying wrote down those markers on how to get there. It was a piece of cake at first getting to KL, but after that, we started to get nervous , scared of winding up on the wrong road! Surprisingly, we reached there at around 2.20pm! 40 minutes early! We met Ken at Beryl there 1st, had a quick chat and scurried of to get the tickets and I got to the toilet to change up. Don’t want to comment about the show(Ang Tao Mui), but I loved Amelia teacher’s performance, as usual ^^

Then went photo snapping crazy xD.

Me+ AnielleMe+Aretha Me+Arabel

Me+Amelia+Sze YingMe+Terrance

Gong kia 衰仔 = =

Shuai Zai went back to Klang with us after the show and we went to Setia Alam’s Pasar Malam as it was still early before I go to the final event of the day. We went there and walked around, occasionally buying snacks to try out and waiting for Lisa’s aunt to pick her up. We gossiped a while and ate some things and as we were walking around we bumped into Lisa’s aunt and we parted then. Sze Ying then fetched Kim and me to Xiao Ling’s house for the party.

To be continued until I get the photos from Chin ^^

PeH day + Update on my pups ^^

2009-10-22T07:23:00.001-07:00

Today was just another ordinary day at school….until we found out that 3rd class kia is staying back school to practice at the activity area… Damn, there goes our plan to practice for the graduation day performance… But wait! A plan suddenly struck my head and we suggested to practice at Xiao Ling’s place for the day. At first we’d thought her mother won’t let her but on the contrary, she granted permission and our practicing venue was changed to her house, her splendid house just outside of our school.

Then , there comes a nerve wrecking moment, we need to accomplish an exciting mission which I’m not going to post about it because the main target(Hero) might know about it. Tips about the main target is at my previous blog 《无奈爱情》. Anyway, we(me, vhun, yang, chin and shene) reached there late because of the mission. Once we reached there, we started off with Shene’s practice because the precious day was Julian’s practice. (Not going to post about it because I’m afraid friends from other classes might come and see and our performance might get leaked) . I finally mastered Julian’s choreography!! So happy xD. It started off quite hard at the beginning but after a period of continuous practice I eventually got the flow of the moves. I won’t deny I do have a little talent in rhythm. Won’t be writing too much tonight because of the exhaustion of my mind and body. Loved today because its the first time I see my class that cooperative in a long long time. Hope S7 will stay in our hearts forever! Love you guys (^3^)~~<3

(5S7~) (Gals only~!)

(Heroes…)

(Plan A on Yap)

(Pattern , acting natural)

(Spider GANG!!!)

(EMO-ing at the bottom left)

Oh, and here’s some update on my pups, they finally opened their eyes! And their taking shape and their characteristics are starting to emerge too!

I like this only blackie,

It has a sort of loved-shape pattern in the chest! xD

The other 6 whities I’d post more pictures on them later on until their body pattern starts to emerge, I still can’t differentiate them until now!!

Alright, time to slumber in …. my…. zzzzzz

Sudden Invite to Hang Out

2009-10-17T08:13:00.001-07:00

Ha ha, today Chin suddenly called me in the afternoon and invited me to hang out at JJ. I knew she would not stand being at home for the coming few days xD. Anyways, we( me, chin, tieng, vhun, yang and teck kai) hanged at JJ’s starbucks for about 3-4 hours lol. And only 2 beverages. Chin’s motive was to discuss the design for our class T-Shirt .In the end, only 3 of the gang took part in discussion xD. Me, Vhun and Yang ended up gay-ing around vhun’s laptop.

Anyway, decided to shorten up my posts due to some complaints from friends about my long long posts ,swt.

We ended up at Pizza Hut at around 5-6pm for a meal. Originally they wanted to feast at Mc Donalds but Vhun and I were quite bored with the food and it’s past the cheap hour of 12-3pm. So we went to Pizza Huts’ for the meal. Too bad we forgot about Tieng, which is a black hole zzz. Once the pizzas arrived we just snatched them pizzas, aiming for the larger pieces. I wasn’t too full at first but was stuffed after 4 refills of coke. Then, we started to chit chatted and the topic was as usual love zzz.

I loved hearing love experience from others usually but today, I felt something different. Referring back to my last post, I suddenly felt…. Can’t find a suitable words to describe….

Anyway, in Tieng’s car on the way home, he suddenly said that tears almost fell out when we started the topic about him. I suddenly felt guilty about it, felt I was a jerk that time when we were chatting about it and I did not noticed or realised him.

Sorry Tieng if we hurt you today during the conversation, because I really think we are the same type of person! After that short conversation between you and me when you are sending me back home just now. We really have a lot in common, well except that my first love is still available (= =) . Remember, if you have anything on your mind come find us, call us out or whatever. We’d accompany you till you feel better k? We won’t be like a someone that only has his girl in mind. ( *_^)

无奈的爱情

2009-10-16T10:33:00.001-07:00

爱情。。对我来说很陌生，直到现在还是单身贵族的我，初恋也还在。

很多人都问我有没有拍过拖我都回到没有，得到的恢复也都是大同小异-不相信。

有人问我渴望爱情吗？其实，是渴望的。

看见身边的朋友都拥有伴侣，感觉很甜蜜，很幸福。

自己其实也挺渴望体验这种感觉。

但身边也出现许多负面的例子，让我看到了，出现了犹豫。

不明白为什么有些人可以为了另一半而完全改变。变成另一个人。

就算是交女友前已经不是很好了，交了后还变本加厉！

这让我心淡。

当然你问我朋友与爱情会如何排法？

我的答案是：朋友、爱情

虽然我以后真的交到女友了，观念会不会变我不敢保证，

但我至少不会导致远离朋友，不体会朋友的感受。

对，交到了女友，人是会变，但我相信在一起最重要就是互相迁就。疼爱女友没错，但宠坏女友只会造成以后的后果。

我迁就你，你迁就我。这不是很好吗？

不一定要导致男方完完全全听完女方的吧，这样的关系绝对不会长久，也不会快乐。

我真的感到痛心，朋友因为爱情放弃了友情。

毕竟朋友一场，至少带买女友一起玩嘛，难道我们见不得人？

最讨厌这种女人，把自己吊高来卖。

俗语也说，嫁鸡随鸡嫁狗随狗，难道男朋友的朋友不能与你相处吗？

爱情果然暨甜蜜又酸苦，是身边的单身朋友酸苦。

有位朋友，因哥哥花心的性格而影响了他对男生的观念。

他常对妹妹说他对女友的不满，然而他却与女友分分离离，时好时坏。

就是有这样的例子，导致现今许多反爱情者，也丢完我们男人的脸。

至今也没踏入过爱河的我，并不反爱情。缘分来了，就上。

我不希望开始了才察觉做出来的决定是错的，到时双方都会受到伤。

至于我写这文章的目的只想发泄一下，最近遇到的一个状况，相信只有几位明白我说的是谁，不知道的也不需要知道，读了的人，也不用怀疑是不是你，因为你来问我我一定会说不是！但如果你真的读了这，也知道我说的是你，我只能再次奉劝：

你做的决定我们无权干涩，我们也不会要求你做任何的决定，

但我要你知道，我们曾经是好朋友，以后是不是，就得看你要还是不要了。

何时再次欢聚一堂

2009-10-10T23:03:00.001-07:00

突然很有感触写下最近的心情。

5年即将要过完。心里真的是充满不舍。

遇到的每一位同伴都让我生活多姿多彩。

虽然我们会常出现不合的状况，但我们很快又好回了。

虽然我们喜欢互相笃背子，但我们并不在意。

因为我们知道我们这一代，进的有很多，退的也很多，走完的也很多。

5年了，我们终于抵达终点。我们一起奋斗，一起合作，一起完成，一起制造许多奇迹。我们也一起得到每一次复出后的结果。

辛苦我们一起顶，欢乐我们一起享。

昨天我们11位‘kiwi 5班’及思盈（+她的男友）和Frankie老师一起替Milo老师庆生。

虽然不比去年来的隆重，pattern不比去年多。

但我们得到的结果确实比去年多。

我们傻傻的假心情指导，扮正经的开幕catwalk，丰富的火锅，Kuso无厘头的表演及每年都会玩的True or Dare。

我们的欢笑，喊叫声成为了我记忆力最珍贵的回忆。

我们说了许多废话和一起讨论自己的未来。

这些点点滴滴都会成为我一生里永远不会忘的事件。

戏剧，戏剧班，再次感谢你引出了真正的我。

让我的中学生涯那么的精彩，那么的光彩。

期待我们‘Kiwi5班’毕业的那一刻。

煲剧

2009-10-08T07:54:00.001-07:00

These few days I kept myself in my room burning dramas. I finished 《绝代商娇》and 《DIE again》long time ago and stopped watching dramas then. To be frank, I loved 绝代 more than DIE this time. I thought that DIE would be better as I quite loved the 1st installment of the series but the second one wasn’t as good as the 1st one so… anyway it’s still a good comedy crime drama.I loved 绝代better because of 黄子华 as the lead actor. His style of comedy is like his own style just like Stephen Chow has his own style of comedy acting. The storyline was also quite good and I loved the chemistry between 黄子华 and Charmaine Sheh.The ending was also cute and funny, compared to the shitty ending of another drama that I would be ranting about later in this post.

Then I started watching the drama replacing it 《有营煮妇》.I never really took seriously as a great drama as it looked like a normal family comedy but I must say, Fala Chen is HOT~~

lol xD. Its quite funny overall, not as funny as DIE and 绝代商娇 but it’s not bad of a time killer when you are extremely bored to death and in no mood for studies. Then I reached the period where I had to wait day by day for the next episode to air. So I finally managed to watch the drama that quite a lot of my friends recon me to watch- 《蔡锷与小凤仙》. I must say, I really anti these types of dramas where the time setting always puzzles me a lot lol. And I never really watched these types of dramas even if produced by TVB. Still, I watched it these 2 days and was convinced a little bit. There were several reasons I decided to watch this ,

i)The leading actors are not bad of an actor for sure. (刘松仁 + 周海媚）

ii)The storyline was quite interesting, even though the time setting still puzzles me sometime

Why I say the time setting puzzles me? Well, first the main costumes are traditional Chinese costumes –cheongsam , qi pao etc. Then there are also a lot of people wearing jackets and uniforms. Then, their usage of language too puzzles me, they uses phrases like ‘mummy’ and ‘high’(the phrase means knocked or have little contact on a person or something). I mean does Chinese use these phrases at that era? Anyway, I’m still going to finish the series even though I’m still not used to the time setting and era of the drama xD. It’s really not bad of a drama if you compare it to 《黄小虎探亲》or something like that. Oh, speaking of shitty TVB dramas, there is one drama that is particularly SHIT. Lol, it’s the latest drama on 8TV 7pm slot. 《强剑》. Really SHIT. It aired its finale today and I’m so pissed of it.

The thing is, the drama started off as the typical kung-fu drama TVB produces but slowly evolves into the modern day kung-fu based drama. Where they lose most of the beautiful battle stunt choreography and increase the usage of modern technology. Yup, the battle scenes were fake and boring and 90% computerized effects. The fake laser add ins were really getting on my nerves especially in today’s finale. It was a disaster. Bosco’s sister, Kevin’s gf died and no sorrow at all. I mean, the death itself were ridiculous. She got hit by the old hag a few times and then no scene of her dying. It skipped to where Kevin kneeling in front of her grave. They used up 2-3 episodes to heal her and she dies in 5 minutes in the last episode…. What a shit lol! I was like what the … When she really died lol… And that wasn’t the worst part, the worst part was the final battle between the heroes and villain in the end. It was like a remake of Stephen Chow’s 《整蛊专家》, where they use and introduce every move/stunt they use in the battle in the way like a commercial. I really can’t stand it when they found out that the villagers of the tin yat tribe used powerful kung-fu for daily chores, including 如来神掌，九阳神功 but those were still quite normal to be seen in a kung-fu drama, but the worst of all was 龟波气功 lol. I was scolding away when Kevin used that, my mom was laughing like hell and me too started to laugh after scolding. The ending was made like a broadway parody by Bosco’s brother and mother. I hated it the most, and the whole series ended with the whole cast dancing foolishly outside of the restaurant. It was horrible. I mean, if you put these type of scenes in comedies for like 《奸人坚》 then it’s ok but put it in a drama like 《强剑》,the product would be a disaster.

Ending dance… ultimate LAME+ SHIT.And it wasn’t for the credits.

Anyway, looking forward to the next 2 dramas from TVB(宫心计 + 富贵门) but I don’t think I’d watched them till after December… SPM coming up and I really, sincerely, hope to pass every subject I’m taking.

New Hair Cut ^^ Tomorrow is the Day

2009-10-05T08:12:00.001-07:00

I finally got my hair cut today after 3 months!!!

Here’s a Before After comparison swt~

Before After

Yup, thats the comparison between my 3 months old hair look and my new hair look. Looks like I won’t cut it if my mom didn’t push me to the corner today xD. Wonder what I’ll look like if I really maintain my hair until after SPM….

Hmm, a half mushroom with some color would do ! xD zzzz Sorry… too gay….

Anyways, tomorrow is the day we fight for our cert.

Hope everybody that wants it will remember to bring their BM exam paper tomorrow to school. We are not going to sit around doing nothing when our cert. is at stake! We are not going to let some idiot island head ruin our record, not during the last moment of our high school lives!!!

Wish us luck, tomorrow is the day…….

Hopefully a Good Luck Sign

2009-10-03T00:02:00.001-07:00

Today seemed to be a great day because it’s our traditional Mooncake Festival aka Lantern Day aka Middle Spring Festival?!?!

Ha ha, other than that, I also like to celebrate a miracle. My dog gave birth to 7 cuties this morning xD.

This is the mother with her babies xD

And this is the horny father xD.

Tell you guys another secret, The mother is actually The fathers daughter!!!! Believe it or not xD. Both dogs I got it from my auntie from Kuantan, the father is older, got it since Form 1 and the mother I got it since Form 3. They are quite cute at times, and ugly as the devil when they are getting mischievous hehe. What I hate most about them is during Heavy rains. The Father would be terrified and cause havoc. The mother would be stupid enough to stand outside the rain and won’t get in the freaking cage xD. But I really love them (even though I only bath them once or twice in my life = =).

Hope this fresh start of life would give my life a better tomorrow and lets pray that our complaint to Pn. Esah at Tuesday would go on smoothly, I want my cert !!!!!

In The Mood For Shit

2009-10-01T22:58:00.001-07:00

Sorry guys, promised that I’d post some shit about 925 gathering but now I’m totally pissed off to do that. The following post will not contain any Bad words,swearing or whatsoever just to prevent me from getting into any trouble by the school.

Today started perfectly normal, until I forgot to bring my bottle to school! I thought it would be an extremely normal day as usual but it turned out to be SHIT.

Arrived school not early not late, started the last test of the SPM trials – Chemistry Paper 2. Thought it was ok even though I did 100% did the whole paper myself. Around 30 more minutes of the paper, our ‘FAVOURITE’ teacher, Mr. Lim Kong Yew came in and then I knew the paper was over. Everyone scattered around chit chatting, getting to know their Add Math. mark from Mr. Lim and so on.

Then I thought it was going to be a superb day as I finally found out my final score in Add Math. A splendid 83!! My first A1 since Senior High and can’t believe it is Add Math. that did the trick!

Well, I was thrilled of course, kept on teasing Ah Yap, he got 75 I think. Then, we went off to recess quite happy.

Now, the second part of the day was the SHIT. Came back to class because the rest of them went to the basketball court for a game. I’m not the sporty guy so I just went back. The first surprise I got was Biology. A Shitty 39, 1 mark away from PASS. Then our Bio teacher disappeared just before I got time to get any pity marks from her.CRAP! Then I just gave up because BIO really wasn’t my thing. Then the second surprise was that I got a 96 for my Math. !Ha Ha, even though it is general knowledge that Math. is a piece of cake, but i never got that high marks in a official exam before xD.

Well, it really was quite shocking but the most SHITTY part of all was BM. WTF?!?!? I failed it!! The moment i pressed my calculator to get the final score I freaked out. A freaking 37!!!! In my life, I NEVER FAIL MY BM. I guess the early training from Pn. Yong made me that. I even got a freaking A for my PMR! For god’s sake, how the hell would I get a 42/100 for my Malay essay?? I always maintained a minimum of 4-5 pages per essay each time I write one and every time, I get a lower score then others that wrote like 2-3 pages. What kind of logic is this? Monkey wrote 1 and a half pages, he got 46/100 and I wrote 4 pages and got 42/100 . Guys, where’s the logic? He even had shitty handwriting that was impossible to read( sorry monkey, no offence just telling the truth = =) and I thought mine was ok, readable at least!

Anyway, the worst part of all is that our “ Brilliant and Bright, High and Mighty, Tall and Handsome teacher” Mr. Nxxx just underlined some sentences and phrases and how the hell would we know what mistakes we made?? He make a tone of underlines with his good friend-the red pen and made a flashy ending with a DAMNED SCORE at the back of the exam sheet! Why don’t you sign your name too? OMG, how dare you play prejudice with me with this kind of subject? You know how important it is for me to pass this subject? I mean, you play with other subject I’m fine but I don’t get the damn cert. if you fail my BM! I’m guessing that the only person in our class that gets a fairly good score is our Mr. PLP(Poh LP). Other than that, I think everyone got shitty results and a whole lot got 37-39 %.

Mr. Nxxx, we are going to seek the guidance from another teacher that may not be better looking than you, taller than you, or not even pregnant, but at least they let us know where we are wrong and the are not as shitty as you, and not as cold hearted as you, RUBBISH.

919 **Birthday At YKs

2009-10-01T04:10:00.001-07:00

Wow, had a splendid holiday.^ ^~

Wasted most of my time with my crappy PC and also my friends,well to be frank, 90%.

9% was spent for sleeping and 1% was spent doing something else that does not concern studying or revising at all, period. xD

So, imma start off with 919, the Birthday Party event at Yong kuan’s house.He’s the typical Hyperactive guy that you know, but, with a hyperactive family too!

Well, not all parents enjoy company at their dwellings but I must say, YK’s family were extremly thrilled for us to be there!Thanks again YK’s dad for the awesome cake =P. That night wasn’t just me as the Birthday boy, there were 2 more main characters, Yong Kuan of course, and also my junior in Drama Club, Siew Hwa.

The party was actually a steamboat meal indoors! Because of the downpour oustide, holding the event outdoors were impossible.Anyways, I arrived there quite late because of my driver- Sze Ying xD(just kidding). I didn’t go there with the other drama lots by bus because they were taking a detour somewhere else and I would most certainly not follow them in my stinking kiwi shirt after a whole morning of drama class. So I went home 1st after drama class ended to take a nice bath and of course dwell around with my PC and kill time. To my surprise, I was already ready at 4.30pm!Sze Ying said she would be arriving around 5.30pm and I was the type of person that would feel extremely shameful to let somebody that is helping you wait so I already sat at the living room that early.LOL, BIG MISTAKE!

People who know me knows that I’m a terrific sweater, no not the one that you wear during winter, as in sweat-er. Yes, i sweat a lot and in a short period and in any temperature! Waiting at the living room for 1 hour would make me like sitting in the sauna for 2 minutes!! And worst, Sze Ying was late zzzz.

Anyway, she got here by around 6.15pm,I know, very late right?zzz And she forgot how to turn in my house, so i have to rush to the main road to spot her.It’s ok actually, because the little run caused the wind to dry off my sweat.Enough about the whole journey thing blah blah blah, we just got there in time just before the steamboat feast began, period.

In the middle of the meal, Sze Ying volunteered to go fetch an old friend of ours at AEON JJ.So she left with Joo Er, Joanne and Shi Yang.YK felt that something was fishy as our old friend won’t be free untill around 10.30pm.Anyways, we continued our feast and Gay-ed around with the other lots.

*****Some time flew by*****

Finally the meal ended and we all continued to Gay around.When YK suddenly grabbed me and siew hwa and told us to act like we didn’t know that there was a cake in the fridge = =”

I was speechless but just went with the flow and it was quite GAY xD. We NG-ed 1-2 times because there was a video recording going on o.o anyway, we really were great actors and it went quite well!I didn’t have the video at the moment so I will post it up as soon as I get my hands on it!.

Thx YK’s dad for the cake ^^

Then,Sze Ying came back with our old friend like 2 hours later xD !! Anyway, by that time, those that didn’t stay at YK’s house were already starting to leave.We managed to snapped some photos before they left and again, I did not possess the photos so I will be posting them later. We helped YK cleaned up a little while Jason that just arrived and helped us cut the cake, started to feast on the remaining food from the steamboat meal.

I that time was still hesitating whether to follow Jason back home(he drove here) or stay at YK’s house and continue to GAY till tomorrow.Well, I guess I should stay, it is my Birthday Party after all xD. And Jason stayed till 4-5 in the morning because he needed to go to KL the next day in the morning and Bkt. Tinggi was Jamming like hell that time.

I won’t forget that night where we snapped tons of photos and watched the midnight theatre at YK’s house- Lust Caution

Loved it eventhough YK skipped all the sex scenes and stopped it in the middle when everybody slept.I promised myself that I would Finished the show once I have the chance and time!

The second day was quite dull, as I woke up quite early( sleeping on the cold floor with only a pillow,you’d wake up early too wouldn’t you?) And I walked to the back to take my morning piss when I found out that Ker Wei was at the PC room playing FaceBook’s MahJong = =. Looks like he didn’t sleep = =

Anyway sleeping on the floor wasn’t half as bad as imagine, sleeping beside pretty girls was quite ‘shock’ too xD.

YK switched on Lust Caution for his actors to watch because they were going to act in a play that needed some homework. Me and Joo Er and Joanne went upstairs for a bath and got ready to go AEON JJ. There they forced me to open……….!! LOL don’t be silly, they forced me to open my gift from them, not anything yellow xD.

And it turned out to be so gay xD.The Birthday card was a Wedding Congratulations card and the present wrapping was Chinese New Years xD. The present was even more GAY, A kitty faced Mirror.But I liked it xD.They also forced me to open my second present, from juniors.(Actually it was I who wanted to open it xD) They tipped me off asking me did I have any Jay Chou album so that made me nervous and thought that it was a Jay Chou album but in my biggest VAIN, It was NARUTO comics….

I HATE NARUTO = = for all of you Naruto fans out there, no offence and I’m not going to spam naruto sucks zzz oops, said it = =

Anyways,there were also 2 nifty file holders which I found quite useful and always wanted one , I mean two xD.

Well, after that we went to AEON JJ, tried to buy tickets for ‘Where got ghost’ but failed and also failed at Green Box because of the expensive price at the moment. And the end when I went back home with LL by bus at 4pm.

Loved the event, gave me more time to hang out with my drama buds which I’m going to say goodbye to in a few more months time. I really LOVE drama alot.

Some random pics

Thx to Chun Ying that upload the pics on facebook ^^

Well, next up, 925 gathering with 5S7 kaki xD~

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Open Blog~开张大吉

2009-10-01T01:40:00.001-07:00

Welcome everybody!!! The reason I open this new blog?
i) the msn space blog sucks zzzz
ii) improve language zzz
iii)looks better and nicer to use than the crappy msn space
iv)most of my friends are using this blog xD

Noticed I used correct spelling?Rather than the 'u', 'd', 'dis', blah blah blah....
well, I said I'd improve my language, eventhough its already quite outstanding xD .....
ok, I'd be posting my 1st official post of this blog ,
but 1st, goodbye msn space, I will miss you, you were my blog for almost 5 years ,
(its true, check my 1st post there xD) but I'm going to start off my new life here,
After a few more months, I'll be leaving high school and starting off my new life!!

Oh, other than english, I will also be posting chinese articles too just so my Chinese won't flunk xD.

~WeT~

PeKCeK的天空

避忌

熬夜

SHIIIIT

失败

在乎

Apple is Frozen

讨厌

第二次

E神

End of Draught

分叉路口

《回忆》 之 《83天团》

MISS

Blog with iPhone

1 day journey

挑战

Ironic

美人眼

Mushroom?Broccoli?

Photography Exercise 1

解放

Back to College life

BYE BYE EMO

EMO song

H U R T

奇异瓜雪之旅

KiWi GatheRing

冷清

未来？？

寂寞/孤单

谐星

点解？！

无奈

不对劲的礼拜

反锁 Trapped outside

Behind The Scene’s behind the scene

Bloody Wisdom Teeth

寻找情绪的桃花源

充实

祸不单行

Happy~

成长？

钱

自我提升

CNY

HeLL Day

GrEEd & SelFishneSS

乐中带悲

对或错？

梦想

学车风云

我太贪心了

sorry，打错电话

TEA

想念从前

2010

24/25 Dec 2009

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S7 Trip Day3

S7 Trip Day2

GoodBye S7

Last Day In Uniform

In The mood For Shit [2]

Brothers Outing

正式毕业

Graduation & Reunion

毕业前夕

Unforgettable Night

1024 Triple Kill(Part 2)

1024 Triple Kill (Part 1)

PeH day + Update on my pups ^^

Sudden Invite to Hang Out

无奈的爱情

何时再次欢聚一堂

煲剧

New Hair Cut ^^ Tomorrow is the Day

Hopefully a Good Luck Sign

In The Mood For Shit

919 **Birthday At YKs

《回忆》之《83天团》